Responses
and when he thought "i'm not alone anymore" then he called fukami and fukami reaffirmed it telling him exactly that. it was a literary device. knowing how fandoms behave nowadays I would have worded differently perhaps. but at the same time I don't know which other thing he could have said to make the situation more in character. casual sex was in fact kaji's addiction.
i legit thought i would hate kaji bc of the comments yesterday but man it was just him being human. life is not just black and white. these people expect kaji to be immediately perfect, but humans as we are we fail we fall and it wasn't even a conscious thought TT
he immediately corrected his thoughts because now he is reminded he is not alone anymore and he can rely on someones comfort and love.
growing and trying to break old habits is not linear and simple where yes im holistically a new person new me. he dismissed that thoughts immediately that you would know it was not something he consciously thought of, rather a response, way of coping he used to have/do for years.a toxic unhealthy habit. he did not even like that thought, and rebuked himself