so are you saying seong cheol was willingly sleeping with his rapist and actually enjoying...

Maybe it’s some sort of trauma response and he doesn’t actually mean it? I’m still so scared it’s gonna go down that route

idk but either way the fact that he keeps expressing how much he hates minho and then dreams about him when he’s drunk is disgusting..i really wish this could’ve been a “getting rid of my bully” kind of story but for some reason i have a feeling it’s going to be the complete opposite

I thought he was dreaming about the cop, when they were in high school together...

Your entire response is so icky. MC clearly has a normal reaction that a lot of SA survivors do when getting assaulted, which is getting turned on or even climaxing. If he's been SA'ed for years, conditioned, where the only sexual experience (speculation but it seems most likely from the flash backs of how their dynamic started) he has is rape- wouldn't it make sense for him to call out for his abuser when he's feeling a reaction primarily associated with his rapist, getting turned on or hard? Let's use some critical thinking skills here.

im not denying that a physical response can happen as a result of trauma. what disgusts me is how the story is going to use this dynamic going forward. the character keeps expressing how much he hates minho, while at the same time he’s being portrayed as desiring or longing for him. im worried that this is ultimately going to turn into a “he actually loved him all along” or “their relationship will become romantic” kind of thing

That’s a really interesting assumption to make given what’s been shared so far and nowhere has it ever been insinuated where MCs being portrayed as desiring or longing for his abuser. What chapters and/or panels insinuate that?

It seems MC and his abuser go way back-probably since MC was in HS given recent chapter flashbacks of them interacting while MC is wearing a uniform and may have also been experiencing abuse from him since. The abuser also mentions how MC used to follow him around so there may have potentially been admiration at some point from MC. We can’t assume that MC possibly having admiration for his abuser in the past being longing or desire. But if we’re gonna make assumptions based on that- I think MC possibly admired his abuser in the past because they’re in a rough neighborhood where money means power and his abuser having money was probably attractive to him as a teen/young adult. So MC followed him around, probably thinking “I also want money, I also want power, I also want somewhere I belong”. MCs abuser eventually gets him hooked on drugs and then starts sexually abusing him- likely downplaying the SA like we see in earlier chapters, “It’s not like I’m raping you” instead describing the rape as having fun and MCs reaction to the rape like fighting back as making IT fun.

Despite that, in the present MC has clearly stated being tired of how his abuser treats him. Several times, especially this recent chapter where he’s beating up that kid and says it sucks, MC clearly reflects on how doing what his abuser says and complying is safer for him. It’s likely the same logic with the sexual abuse-especially when he knows that either way he is going to get raped. Which do you think is safer for someone in his position- go along with it or fight back and not only still get raped but also get the shit beat out of you? Is doing what your abuser wants for safety, desire or longing?

And if you’re going to use this recent chapter, where MC calls out for his abuser while high and turned on then again: getting turned on=rape=abuser- so if he’s turned on, it makes sense he would associate that with his rapist. Let’s not forget MC was a former addict and with how Minho rapes a guy who he sold drugs to, he was likely raping MC when drugging him too. So we can likely add drugs=rape=abuser. So now we have MC turned on and drugged up, what is he conditioned to these factors? Getting raped by Minho.