I like that we won’t be able to see Garam face in these chapters because we are kinda seeing it from Comton’s POV. Compton was, is and will always be that kid, stuck in his teenager years, desperate for Heejae’s respect and acknowledgment.
Garam himself, to Compton is a big puzzle that he is unable to fathom or process as how can somebody not only manage to tackle Heejae successfully (professionally; got approval of his own rendition of Rachmaninoff) but also defeat that whole ideal about “Heejae is only in it for music”. Heejae is in fact, only in it for the music BUT he is also capable of love, comfort and most importantly, forming a soul mate level of relationship with others (And it’s not him).
So he sees Garam, but kinda not see him in a way. Hence why Garam face is always covered in those water lilies because hatred is the closest thing he can link to the professor and Garam sort of represents that (only half of the truth). He clung to that last rope because if he wasn’t a Heejae hatred, what else could you also be? That explains why even when he has achieved and reached that level of heavenly music, it still wasn’t enough for him because it wasn’t the music itself that he wants, he wants the version of Heejae likes instead. I feel really bad for Compton as having this sort of trauma or experience at the early age really shaped and solidified your perspective as a person into adulthood as well. Like he has the worst case of identity crisis among the rest of the students.
I like that we won’t be able to see Garam face in these chapters because we are kinda seeing it from Comton’s POV. Compton was, is and will always be that kid, stuck in his teenager years, desperate for Heejae’s respect and acknowledgment.
Garam himself, to Compton is a big puzzle that he is unable to fathom or process as how can somebody not only manage to tackle Heejae successfully (professionally; got approval of his own rendition of Rachmaninoff) but also defeat that whole ideal about “Heejae is only in it for music”. Heejae is in fact, only in it for the music BUT he is also capable of love, comfort and most importantly, forming a soul mate level of relationship with others (And it’s not him).
So he sees Garam, but kinda not see him in a way. Hence why Garam face is always covered in those water lilies because hatred is the closest thing he can link to the professor and Garam sort of represents that (only half of the truth). He clung to that last rope because if he wasn’t a Heejae hatred, what else could you also be? That explains why even when he has achieved and reached that level of heavenly music, it still wasn’t enough for him because it wasn’t the music itself that he wants, he wants the version of Heejae likes instead. I feel really bad for Compton as having this sort of trauma or experience at the early age really shaped and solidified your perspective as a person into adulthood as well. Like he has the worst case of identity crisis among the rest of the students.