Fr im sitting here confused that Ishimon is having such intimate talks with Sylhan about his condition and his past memories, while Gjord is off doing whatever else in the background (tho i'm sure it's important business). But because of his duties, Sylhan's care is then entrusted to his friends (Ishimon) who then takes on the caring and concerned role when Gjord could've been given this role too love ishimon tho

So not only Ishimon outshined Gjord in the last 10-20 chapters with rescue mission and genuine care, but we still getting this emotionally charged conversation showing how much he worries for MC I just can’t, it’s like my brain refuses to accept we are having this with friend/servant and not so much with actual lover, while Gjord fumbled after reunion so bad.