Kim Heejae thinking he is a knife but doesn't realize he is double edged fits this scene perfectly. He causes damage so reflexively that he doesn't even retain the memory of the violence he inflicts.For Han Garam, that realization is a special kind of horror. It reveals that the moment which likely reshaped his entire life, and dynamic with Heejae was so utterly insignificant to Heejae. Heejae asking "Who did this to you?" with genuine concern or anger is far more damaging than if he had mocked the scar. Mockery would mean he remembered and owned his cruelty. Forgotten cruelty, however, leaves Garam completely isolated in his trauma. It shows that Heejae’s emotionally manipulative nature isn't always calculated malice...it is a subconscious habit. He cuts people without even realizing his own hands are bleeding.Garam might have believed Heejae’s harshness was intentional and twisted form of artistic discipline. But after this moment Garam realizes Heejae is fundamentally blind to his own destruction. You cannot reason with a blade that doesn't know it cuts.Garam’s internal desire to say "It was you who marked me" is devastatingly painful because it takes a profound, level of empathy to look at the man who scarred you, both physically and mentally, and feel pity for his loneliness.Hearing Heejae ask "Why do you continue to see good in the bastard who put you through nothing but misery?" must feel like a sickening echo to Garam as he is doing that exact same thing not only for Compton, but for Heejae himself. Heejae is literally questioning the very mechanism of unconditional, tragic forgiveness that allows Garam to accept all of Heejae.Garam remembering when Compton asked him that even if he loved Heejae , does Heejae deserve that love or if Heejae is even capable of loving anything other that music is a tragic reminder that Garam’s musicality is what allowed Heejae to "see" him in the first place. For Heejae, Garam’s music is Garam’s very essence. If you strip away the musician, you strip away the only dialect Heejae knows how to recognize as beautiful. For him, it is his primary language of understanding emotions.Because he lacks standard emotional empathy, music is the only medium where he can feel, express, and connect. So Garam is probably wondering what remains in their relationship without music ?
Kim Heejae thinking he is a knife but doesn't realize he is double edged fits this scene perfectly. He causes damage so reflexively that he doesn't even retain the memory of the violence he inflicts.For Han Garam, that realization is a special kind of horror. It reveals that the moment which likely reshaped his entire life, and dynamic with Heejae was so utterly insignificant to Heejae. Heejae asking "Who did this to you?" with genuine concern or anger is far more damaging than if he had mocked the scar. Mockery would mean he remembered and owned his cruelty. Forgotten cruelty, however, leaves Garam completely isolated in his trauma. It shows that Heejae’s emotionally manipulative nature isn't always calculated malice...it is a subconscious habit. He cuts people without even realizing his own hands are bleeding.Garam might have believed Heejae’s harshness was intentional and twisted form of artistic discipline. But after this moment Garam realizes Heejae is fundamentally blind to his own destruction. You cannot reason with a blade that doesn't know it cuts.Garam’s internal desire to say "It was you who marked me" is devastatingly painful because it takes a profound, level of empathy to look at the man who scarred you, both physically and mentally, and feel pity for his loneliness.Hearing Heejae ask "Why do you continue to see good in the bastard who put you through nothing but misery?" must feel like a sickening echo to Garam as he is doing that exact same thing not only for Compton, but for Heejae himself. Heejae is literally questioning the very mechanism of unconditional, tragic forgiveness that allows Garam to accept all of Heejae.Garam remembering when Compton asked him that even if he loved Heejae , does Heejae deserve that love or if Heejae is even capable of loving anything other that music is a tragic reminder that Garam’s musicality is what allowed Heejae to "see" him in the first place. For Heejae, Garam’s music is Garam’s very essence. If you strip away the musician, you strip away the only dialect Heejae knows how to recognize as beautiful. For him, it is his primary language of understanding emotions.Because he lacks standard emotional empathy, music is the only medium where he can feel, express, and connect. So Garam is probably wondering what remains in their relationship without music ?