I want to but I'm scared... Can someone encourage me so I can find the strength? Please?

You should read this. It has a good tone. Plot and character are great. The romance is subtle but pronounced.

Thank you for pointing out the good parts! It trully helps me. I'm terrified of actual well written characters being devastated when tragedy happens.

This is the single most beautiful piece of literature you will find on this platform, nothing else comes close.

It is like a snowflake, a fleeting miracle of nature, beautiful for the single moment in which it exists and never again, and whose loss leaves behind the same pain as losing someone you truly love.