i luv boobs

they inspire me. is it normal to like boobs so much u want to see and touch them? like, do lesbians daydream about boobs? i never looked at men in a "damn wow this man's body is so good" like, for men it has always been the faces for me....if i found the face of a man pretty and his voice/tone good , then he was pretty to me. but womennnnnnn *lip bite emoji* i love how pretty and amazing they are.... i used to lwk like the teachers when they dressed up pretty during school (during some school event or her birthday etc.) male teachers were UGLY sorry lmao, and even the "good looking" male teachers were average at best.
when a teacher (lady) came to me to ask questions or help me with a doubt, and if she was explaining to me nicely and she was wearing a saree(it's an indian attire) so i could see her waist and cleavage and they used to wear some perfume AGHHH i sound so pervert and bad but trust me omg T_T when i tell u i used to be like "dAMNN their husbands LUCKKYYY T_T"
but my attraction to men is so "muse-like" in a sense that yeah, i am attracted to them but i would not be comfortable dating them like tf u mean u gotta spend time alone with a MAN?!?! why would women wanna do that?? having a bf sounds cool but EVERYDAY?!?! like, i want men the way i want trophies. i wanna hoard the pretty looking ones. i want them all. like a possession. be mine!! but in a museum type of way. i lwk dgaf about men. i dont understand them. they dont feel human to me (if it makes sense?) so, like, im aesthetically attracted to men, romantically attracted to women, and sexually attracted to no one T_T in a way T_T. by that i mean i don't wanna ACTUALLY have sex w anyone (sorry i cant be that vulnerable my cool girl persona will break) but if i HAD to (say in a hypothetical situation if i had to marry someone) it would be a woman not a man.