my thoughts exactly. everyone keeps saying he's a psycho, well yeah no shit, but if you look at where he's coming from it's quite reasonable, just as you say. Doesn't make it any better but I do like to understand why ppl are the way they are...
..and tbh I think he's really holding back and trying his best. He's talking about his feelings, his fear and his extremes... he's grown much!

isn't the ML's actions quite reasonable? in sense na you'd prolly act similar if you grew up like him. Mind you even growing up there was no clear guidance whether his actions are moral. They lit was raised like military weapons... So, doesn't it make sense for him to be too anxious???? and tbh MC is also pushing him on the edge too, idk maybe I'm just waaaaayy fucked up or wtv