my fat ass finger accidentally disliked, but real.
I mean, Seo Jung is shown to be a people pleaser, he is pretty sensitive and tries his best to avoid any conflict incoming. For me he's avoidant and struggles with himself and the moment that his lover who lost his memories, suddenly spits such a poison and doesn't even try to have a proper conversation anyhow?? Oh and not to mention he also struggles ptsd himself from the car accident having already weak mindset bruh. Which harms him even more, he is confronted by ChaYoons parents blaming him, which makes it even heavier. So basically the homophobia from his now ex boyfriend and thrown blame at him makes it already a lot and who know what else happend meanwhile. Also I recommend reading novel because this manhwa is a lost case so far and in novel everything is just so much clearer like holy shit. There's no way in putting blame and making the Mc guilty. Plus the misunderstanding is mutual and they need to work it out in the future, personally there's not enough information in the current chapters to even side with anyone XDD
I forgot to mention that ChaYoon as well as SeoJung appears on a dating show, WITH his actual ex/childhood friend with who he has a history to share. They both have no contact for six month and NONE of them reach out but apparently ML was in shambles because OmG HoW dArE hE lEaVe hIs AmNeSiAc BoYfRiEnD(mind you, he was refusing to acknowledge that they were together at first like completely) and then MC is like omg after so much time he comes to a show like that with his ex :(( it hurts to know they wanna be back together(the big misunderstanding on his side) and he had moved on EVEN from the accident meanwhile I'm still living it like ???? No offense, just look more openly
Don't mind me just getting bit overly emotional
No no i get u!! Its such a messy situation tbh someone mentioned about internalized homophobia (for mc), do you also agree as someone who has read the novel?
I kinda get the mc's personality tho! Hes prob actually a timid person in heart and dont know what to do in that situation. Like the kind who put a big wall for others and not letting anyone getting through (except for ml that time) so when the only one person he can trust wasnt there anymore his original defense came up?? But still its so sad to see nawrrrrrhh im not blaming him but im still siding with the ml more lmao
I also get you too ngl, but I guess I just relate to the MC.
To be honest when I read the novel, what I personally got from SeoJung, wasn't directly internalized homophobia but it was resentment toward ChaYoon. The fact that he even forgot him, specifically that moment, where YCH was denying their relationship in a very passive aggressive way.
So thats what drove SJ to not be even able to try help him, to communicate and lead him properly back to his memories they built together.
Because what's more devastating then hearing from your supposed gay lover that they think it's disgusting and it's impossible for them to be together? He's deeply HURT because this is not the same CHY he knew. (Coward trying to run away from a responsibility as well.)
It got him into very pessimistic mind space, and considering that they had a lot going on with self development and accepting themselves through their relationship and the fact that it was first homosexual relationship on both sides it made an even bigger impact.
(They're both just stupid and frustrating within their own reason I guess)
And as far as I am in the novel, the only internalized homophobia that there is shown is from ChaYoon side. It's shown a lot, although a bit later on it goes into that topic as to why.
I hope I didn't mess anything up that i wanted to say lmao have a good day
I see i see, thank you so much for the input !!
thissss but the mc reason for leaving is .... there's a reason for that
Im actually kinda siding with the ML (rare time!). I dont know the full context since i only read the manhwa (not to mention, the ass translations lmao) but i think what the ML feels is valid tbh.... Just imagine woke up from a coma with amnesia, you have no one to lean to, you're literally in vulnerable and confused state, and suddenly someone who said was your lover leave you just like that.
I still dont really know the real reason MC leave ML, tho. Was it really only because ML doesnt remember him and show a hostile reaction towards him? Then it feels a bit too shallow, isnt it? Is your love only applied in convenience situation? You know exactly that ML was in no his usual self, and he needs lots of support and reassurance. It's kinda sad..
Also i really have no idea why the thought of ML wants him back doesnt cross his mind at ALL. it's like MC really has no faith in ML's love.. Yk im thinking something people usually say, like "would you still love me if i turned into a worm?"
ML's memories are slightly damaged and MC assume he would not love him anymore just like that.. Would you also leave him if 'Cha Yun' isnt Cha Yun anymore?
This is actually so sad..the forum discussion breaks my heart even more.. Even strangers can see how deeply ML was in love with MC ☹☹ why am i thinking so hard just for a mere angstslop omg