Fr fr it was very difficult to read in novel, I was actually disappointed at him, for someone who is obsessed with tae, went through a lot to rescue him sure didn't think much to physically hurt him also I absolutely hated how tae took it and brushed off everything if it were me I would definitely not associate with someone who have hurt me no matter what the reason is.
Ilay rapes tae, doesn't listen to a single thing what taeui has to say, there is no preparation nothing and tae actually has to check whether he was torn or not. Later he complains, not like someone who got raped but like someone who is used to it, Ilay's brother asks them to come back to his place and they go back to Kyle's place. There is no sorry or I apologise from Ilay's side just "you aren't torn I checked". Honestly Passion's ending would leave you disappointed, Ilay gets a lot better in Passion suite, and diaphonic Symphonia but spoiler alert the main ml of ds is even worse then Ilay, like Ilay has some redeeming qualities that poopy mother ducker has none nothing nada.
People hate Xinlu but in passion universe he is the best ml, yes he was cruel and did things but he improved a lot, he yearned, you can feel in later parts of the story that he does love yuri and he quickly apologises if he did something cruel. I think if author nim writes another story for Jaeui then that will be green flag too because Rehman did seems like someone who treats Jaeui like a queen.
You can read them from a site called sammy and passion but it has password and I have no idea what's the password. Also I found decent translations of passion main story, suite in scribd too but they had nothing for raga and ds, sammy actually did a good job in translating this whole universe there are side stories too (a totally different novel) which is sweet and cute. Especially tae and Ilay's part. I skipped Richard's and alex's part because I can't stand Richard. I think I yapped a lot

what's gonna happen next is the worst thing ilay will do to tay. f u ilayyy.