Is it just me? every time i see xinglu topping the memory of him getting f*cked by Ilay po...

Is it just me? every time i see xinglu topping the memory of him getting f*cked by Ilay pops up in my head. Is there something wrong with my head or is this really happened. can't tell if this scene is really true since it was a year or two when i read that chapter.