"what the hell am i thinking" after he thought ideum as his. and "you're the worst, kwon jaeyi" he says to himself. i hope thats him reflecting and being true to himself. but im not gonna hope, and try to be realistic. bcs jaeyi and jiseong's story is that 1 brother isnt living true to himself by stealing the other's life, and 1 brother isnt living true to himself bcs he's too traumatized to have something to call his own. so jaeyi has overcome that before being ideums bf, bcs if not then hed only "claim" ideum as if he is in a race with jiseong. god i hate/love this siblings dynamic bcs it shows a reality I myself could be living in rn if i hadnt stepped back from being competitive with my sister.
"what the hell am i thinking" after he thought ideum as his. and "you're the worst, kwon jaeyi" he says to himself. i hope thats him reflecting and being true to himself. but im not gonna hope, and try to be realistic. bcs jaeyi and jiseong's story is that 1 brother isnt living true to himself by stealing the other's life, and 1 brother isnt living true to himself bcs he's too traumatized to have something to call his own. so jaeyi has overcome that before being ideums bf, bcs if not then hed only "claim" ideum as if he is in a race with jiseong. god i hate/love this siblings dynamic bcs it shows a reality I myself could be living in rn if i hadnt stepped back from being competitive with my sister.