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I'd lean more towards ace and demi than anything, also ace overall doesn't have one firm meaning it's a spectrum
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I'd lean more towards ace and demi than anything, also ace overall doesn't have one firm meaning it's a spectrum
Hi, i’m turning 22 this year and for my sexual orientation has been confusing me up for the past few years. I don’t really like labels my sexuality but mostly people guessed that I’m lesbian or either pansexual.
First when I discovered my sexuality as a pansexual back in 2021 after i broke up with my ex who cheated on me, and i was pretty much fallen into depression for a long period of time.
Then I met someone that made me feel happy again, that was a trans man, he was sweet to me and first but I fell in love with him when I was barely hitting 18 and he’s 27 at that time (Yes I am aware I was groomed cuz I was pretty much young and naive) He liked me back and we pretty much didn’t last long because he was rushing our relationships into marriage. We broke up and I decided I don’t feel like love is real anymore.
By 2023, I started my new life avoiding love in college but instead I had a crush on a girl who look butch/masc. Things aren’t going well because i was afraid they start loosing interest in me if I do like someone, instead of liking them, i’d rather just admired them from afar.
Sudden change on my second semester on my second year, my friend introduced me a guy and ive been pretty much testing myself if i still like guys or not so I decided why not introduce himself for it? Turns out he was a narcissist asshole who was full of himself thinking i would give him a chances. That situation settle with confrontation of course. After that, I went for another guy I met in… tinder app ofc… We hit off, we talked about sex life and all that like we understood each other needs but when we first met, I feel sick and disappointed because I don’t really feel the spark in us, and more likely I feel ick. So of course we disclose our feelings and thoughts and decide not to contact each other anymore.
But somehow I still attracted to something beautiful, no matter the gender but I still can’t get the fact I had the idea of dating them makes me feel wary. I love masculine girls especially because they actually make me feel nervous and same goes of guys who have a feminine features .
I am maybe avoidant, it’s just when I’m trying to like someone makes me feels empty inside.