I do not trust the author, and I do not even trust myself haha Everything about this feels so deceptive. He is trying to numb his emotional pain with physical intimacy once again, just as he has done in the past. And I understand why but. There is something strangely comforting about it, a sense of relief that comes with finally having someone to lean on. And yet, somehow, that relief is tinged with bitterness. I want to believe, but I am so afraid to.
I do not trust the author, and I do not even trust myself haha Everything about this feels so deceptive. He is trying to numb his emotional pain with physical intimacy once again, just as he has done in the past. And I understand why but. There is something strangely comforting about it, a sense of relief that comes with finally having someone to lean on. And yet, somehow, that relief is tinged with bitterness. I want to believe, but I am so afraid to.