I relate heavily to soojung. Sometimes when youre rhat traumatized, it’s easier to help others than help yourself. When the reasons why you were traumatized are out of your control, and you did all you could to get out of it and it was still useless, helping others becomes a way to cope. It is very white knight, and is very unhealthy.
She also probably doesn’t know how to properly communicate, especially with soemone she loves. She loved her mother once, and the mother’s actions slowly killed that parental figure until all you have left is someone you share blood witj. Someone who you know you should care about, and should be reliable, but isnt at all. It’s like watching youre parents die in real time and growing distant to them, all while feeling the obligation as a child to maintain some sort of relationship. It’s exhausting and draining. All your good memories start to fade or sour, and all you learn from your “role models” is what not to do.
Also given that her mother said to her that no one would love her (or something along those lines), and she grew up thinking she would never fall in love, she’s very closed off. In addition, because her mother had so many other issues while soojung was growing up, soojung probably felt like she couldn’t go to her to talk. Especially since she was the one comforting her crying mom. I’m thinking there’s probably some type of huge trauma where soojung might have asked her mom for help, and got brushed off too. It was sort of hinted at in this chapter, but idk what it is.
Not wanting to address her mental state is most likely a survival response to her environment. It’s difficult to break out of those molds, especially since it’s all you knew for your entire life. This is the first time where thay state was challenged; where people wanted her to share. It’s a wildly uncomfortable to experience. For example, for me personally, things like that trigger a physical crying reponse, even if I don’t feel sad. For soojung, I guess it’s to lash out.
This is all to say, soojung is in the process of challenging her regular reactions tk things. She can either not change and break up, or she will open up and share with sara. When you’ve been alone for so long, letting someone ib feels dangerous. Because that means you have someone who can hurt you, and someone to lose. It’s a high risk high reward type decision.
(Personal note: while I relate to soojung, I will never date that shi terrifies me, but I have thought about what would happen if I did decide to date. And no man/woman is worth alldat ngl. In the first season, soojungs experiences was like reading my own personal thoughts, and experiences. It was crazy.)
I relate heavily to soojung. Sometimes when youre rhat traumatized, it’s easier to help others than help yourself. When the reasons why you were traumatized are out of your control, and you did all you could to get out of it and it was still useless, helping others becomes a way to cope. It is very white knight, and is very unhealthy.
She also probably doesn’t know how to properly communicate, especially with soemone she loves. She loved her mother once, and the mother’s actions slowly killed that parental figure until all you have left is someone you share blood witj. Someone who you know you should care about, and should be reliable, but isnt at all. It’s like watching youre parents die in real time and growing distant to them, all while feeling the obligation as a child to maintain some sort of relationship. It’s exhausting and draining. All your good memories start to fade or sour, and all you learn from your “role models” is what not to do.
Also given that her mother said to her that no one would love her (or something along those lines), and she grew up thinking she would never fall in love, she’s very closed off. In addition, because her mother had so many other issues while soojung was growing up, soojung probably felt like she couldn’t go to her to talk. Especially since she was the one comforting her crying mom. I’m thinking there’s probably some type of huge trauma where soojung might have asked her mom for help, and got brushed off too. It was sort of hinted at in this chapter, but idk what it is.
Not wanting to address her mental state is most likely a survival response to her environment. It’s difficult to break out of those molds, especially since it’s all you knew for your entire life. This is the first time where thay state was challenged; where people wanted her to share. It’s a wildly uncomfortable to experience. For example, for me personally, things like that trigger a physical crying reponse, even if I don’t feel sad. For soojung, I guess it’s to lash out.
This is all to say, soojung is in the process of challenging her regular reactions tk things. She can either not change and break up, or she will open up and share with sara. When you’ve been alone for so long, letting someone ib feels dangerous. Because that means you have someone who can hurt you, and someone to lose. It’s a high risk high reward type decision.
(Personal note: while I relate to soojung, I will never date that shi terrifies me, but I have thought about what would happen if I did decide to date. And no man/woman is worth alldat ngl. In the first season, soojungs experiences was like reading my own personal thoughts, and experiences. It was crazy.)