this is such a GREAT review and opinion piece on the chapters. i completely agree with everything stated and i have to say i'm quite nervous about them being outed out. i really hope they're not, or that they can do so on their own terms, but i just want both jiwon and dg to be happy
I remember this post!
It seems to be enough for 1 chapter for LN/WN haha jk
oh no I read the last sentences and was spoiled... but that was my theory anyways.... for anyone reading this who doesn't wanna get spoiled just don't read the last sentences lol
Aw no we don't know yet if they will be outed. Nothing has happened yet in the raws. I'm just saying that the next few chapters will be about that. Sorry if that spoiled you.
Yeah haha I posted it when ch70 raws went out which was like April 4 or something. Almost 2 months ago.
Thanks. I reread the whole webtoon from the beginning so the story unfolded better with no cuts. Waiting weekly for updates can make readers forget some things haha.
I WAS RIGHT!!!!
I can finally repost this old comment I wrote because this chapter finally got translated. I wrote this when the chapter 70 raws was posted because the ending of that chapter made me realize something about the relationship between Jiwon and Donggyun.
For context, the ending of chapter 70 was when Donggyun told Jiwon about his old friends bullying him for being gay and Jiwon wondered what if they had met in highschool, both broken boys, and found solace in each other. Maybe they wouldn't have been so broken now.
Anyway, this is the old comment:
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This scene is a great summary of the whole story. Jiwon is the way he was with DG at the beginning because DG posed as a threat to the one thing that he has worked so hard for - reputation and acceptance. And why he is the way he is now with DG after everything else.
In this school, Jiwon is loved by everyone, he is accepted and respected. Online, he is loved by thousands and is number 1 as opposed to how he grew up and was treated by his parents whom he only wanted to please. He was always a disappointment to them and no matter how hard he tried, he was never good enough. He had issues being 2nd place, being 2nd choice. He was jealous of his brother growing up because his brother has it all. He was sweet and nice to people but he was still never accepted by the people who mattered to him. So when that hyung started treating him special, he held on because for once he was the 1st priority, he was the 1st choice. So when the hyung turned out to be a cheater who never really cared for him, it broke him because he realized it was the same all over again - he was just not good enough.
But in this new school where his brother doesn't go, where he's the president and is adored by many, he feel freer. He is finally the person that is respected. Online, he has the love of strangers. But all of that is in jeopardy the minute DG recognized him. That made him treat DG harshly, made him treat DG callously. He pushed him away as much as he can but found that he was very much attracted to DG so he propositioned the fuckbuddy relationship. Even then, he still put a clear line between them because he was still held back by his past. He even treated DG harshly and acted on his jealousy with MD - the number 2 bj. He saw MD as a threat, the same way he thought he was not good enough for DG, that DG wanted more, something he can't give. Was he right in the way he treated DG? NO. But there's a reason for it and what's good is that he realized it and he recognized his mistake. Whenever he felt that he's slowly letting DG in into his life, he pushes DG away because even he can recognize that he feels something for DG. DG is not making it up in his head, because he was right, Jiwon was sending mixed signals. Jiwon just can't accept it because he can't let go of his past.
But when faced with the real possibility of DG getting over him, Jiwon realized that DG really meant a lot to him. That was when he ripped the old picture with the hyung who hurt him. He realized he was hurting DG the way he was hurt by that hyung. Because he was so afraid to be hurt, he ended up hurting someone else who only ever wanted love from him, the way he only wanted it back then. He understood that he hurt DG and decided to leave him alone seeing him smile so happily with Jaejin.
But of course, when he decided to leave DG alone, that was when DG got sick lol and they ended up confessing to each other and talking about the misunderstandings. After talking, DG gives Jiwon a chance and gets together with him because he recognizes that Jiwon is not defined by one or two actions. They're adult enough to recognize mistakes and forgive and move on forward together.
Jiwon is sweet to DG now because he is finally himself. He's not hiding anymore and he's not being held back by his past. DG isn't a threat to his popularity anymore as a bj because DG ended up providing him the love he sought from internet strangers through streaming.
Idk how Jiwon will react if they get outed because his image is so important to him and because DG has had such a traumatic experience with being ridiculed in high school too. So I'm curious as well.
Thanks for coming to my TED talk.
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I'm editing this last part since someone said it counts as a spoiler. Anyway, my main takeaway is that Jiwon realised the emptiness he felt for a long time, the longing to be loved that his parents denied him and the hyung that played him, he finally has it from Donggyun. That's why he was broadcasting in the first place, to feel that love, but now he realized he doesn't need internet strangers' love anymore because he already has DG's true love.