So I kind of don't believe in love. As in I believe you can love someone (like when you love your family and friends) but i don't believe u can fall in love (not all the time though). So for me, I have seen what love can do with someone. For example my parents. My mom was deeply in love with my dad till the point it cost her mental health. (By the way my dad was 49 and my mom was 20 went they had me). Because of the whole thing i went up for adoption. By the way my dad was marry at that time. My dad hav 9 children outside of his marriage. All of his children have different mother. I have seen a lot of couples break up because they have cheat or they can't gree or they stop love each other. Or when they do fall in love they do the stupidest thing because they "love" the person. And i don't want that For me liking or having a crush on a guy scares me.. Because i don't want to be like mom. There are times my friends or my crush ask me why are you single. And i would give them a stupid reason such as i don't want to be in relationship. Or i like being single. Or no one likes me. Which is a lie. I don't think i have ever tell my friends the really reason. I'm just scared. I do want to fall in love but i don't want to at the same time. Love is scary and sometimes males don't make it for you like them either. Same goes for female. And because of all this I have become very clingy andd possessive over my friends. I would get jealous if they get close to people who aren't me.
So I kind of don't believe in love. As in I believe you can love someone (like when you love your family and friends) but i don't believe u can fall in love (not all the time though).
So for me, I have seen what love can do with someone. For example my parents. My mom was deeply in love with my dad till the point it cost her mental health. (By the way my dad was 49 and my mom was 20 went they had me).
Because of the whole thing i went up for adoption. By the way my dad was marry at that time. My dad hav 9 children outside of his marriage. All of his children have different mother.
I have seen a lot of couples break up because they have cheat or they can't gree or they stop love each other. Or when they do fall in love they do the stupidest thing because they "love" the person. And i don't want that
For me liking or having a crush on a guy scares me..
Because i don't want to be like mom.
There are times my friends or my crush ask me why are you single. And i would give them a stupid reason such as i don't want to be in relationship. Or i like being single. Or no one likes me. Which is a lie.
I don't think i have ever tell my friends the really reason.
I'm just scared. I do want to fall in love but i don't want to at the same time.
Love is scary and sometimes males don't make it for you like them either. Same goes for female.
And because of all this I have become very clingy andd possessive over my friends. I would get jealous if they get close to people who aren't me.