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I don’t even know where to start.......

BlueSenpai123 May 12, 2020 8:52 am

I read this whole story and my feelings are all jumbled together... I can’t even tell whether or not I’m mad, sad or happy. I wouldn’t even compare this to Killing Stalking, yeah it seems similar to some people but the characters themselves and their story are wayyyyy too different. Yule was difficult to understand (his actions, his love, and his reasoning) but with the way his family is, I can almost understand why he became so fucked up. I can’t justify the rape, abuse, humiliation, degradation, and violence; I can’t completely forgive none of the characters. Yule was obsessed with Kyungsoo and I believe he really loved him but didn’t know how to express it so he used his violent behavior as mediator for his love. Maybe he really is sick(mentally) but his family should’ve noticed sooner and at least tried to get him help. Kyungsoo Seemed desperate for love, specifically Yule’s love based on his actions and type of men. He took all the pain for Yule as if he wanted him to acknowledge what he was willing to sacrifice in order to stay with him but when he realized that it wasn’t working he ran afraid of everything he forced himself to endure. Yule and Kyungsoo both are twisted in their own way, each one just wanted the others love but their actions had a negative effect on each other. Dong-Hyuk was the less psycho version of Yule, when he forced them to realize how they truly feel about each other, I was heated reading that chapter but I understood that he probably was feeling used and was sick of being in their fights. He loved Kyungsoo but realized that no matter what he did Yule would always be on Kyungsoo‘s mind. He knew what he was getting into the moment he watched Yule rape Kyungsoo. Geon is a asshole.. he acts like spoiled child that wants attention, he blames Yule for their mother’s death but instead of facing his YOUNGER brother he takes his frustration out on Kyungsoo. He doesn’t want Yule to be happy or have anyone in his life because Geon is all alone. Yeon does her best to help Yule and Kyungsoo, she helps Yule understand that is actually hurting Kyungso and tries to guide him. Yeon doesn’t want Kyungsooto leave Yule because she can tell they really love each other but she uses the wrong methods to keep them together. I love the story but it isn’t something for sensitive people but I do recommend people read it and try to figure their feeling about it tho....(╯°Д °)╯╧╧. (╬ ̄皿 ̄)凸

Responses
    aki_kolpii May 14, 2020 2:06 am

    Thank you for that detailed explanation and I think I will pass onto this one. But I think I will read this when I have the courage to do so

    taritari24 May 14, 2020 4:25 pm

    Wooow, thank you for writing this. It's exactly what I felt and thought as I read this story. My feelings are sooo mixed up.