Sorry, I didn't want to dislike
I am 30 years old and I didn't experience love. And its okay. It is not a bad thing
I love the comments under this manga so much
I feel like falling in love with someone is something that is deemed as a must-have. The way i see it, as of right now is, im so in love with everything. My surrounding, the small experiences, and overall just moments, that i don't necessarily need anyone. It makes you fickle in the eyes of those who believe that happiness derives from pouring your hard work and love into someone.
What Makio said, about not everybody falling in love and that it was okay, I felt that.
I'd come to this realization only a few months ago. I'd been sitting on a chair in my room, it was completely quiet as everybody was asleep.
The morning dawn was slowly spreading. I felt utterly alone.
And I was worrying, about this imaginary checklist of my life, and how my life seemed to stretch before me meaninglessly. I'm already 23, I feel I'm only wasting my life and not particularly heading anywhere.
I was trying to convince myself that I wouldn't necessarily be leading a life similar to that of others, so I shouldn't be worrying about the 'checklist' either.
And suddenly this cold realization washes over me, that I wouldn't necessarily be falling in love either or have the kind of relationship the romantic in me keeps reading about.
It's not like I never had any opportunities, it just wouldn't work out that way- mostly due to how aloof I am as a person.
It's almost as if I like the idea of it but can't embrace the reality of it. My heart feels fickle.
I find myself relating to a lot of things Makio says but she's much more of a 'nobler' person than I ever could be.