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I didnt really like it. The uke is 100% allowed to live his life however he wants to live it but immediately having a threesome and THATS where he realizes his feelings? Apart from the fact he immediately does it with Natsume afterwards too? It's a little odd to me. I feel like if I was in Natsumes shoes I would be a little hurt ngl. I mean I wouldn't have sex friends to begin with but ngl it's felt rushed, no actual drama from what I feel warranted drama. I dunno maybe I'm not into hookup culture at all for me to be understanding ig
I think i was on the verge of a mental breakdown myself reading this. At least it wasn't long...the sex scenes are good but everything else? Eh....even as someone clinically diagnosed with depression, I couldn't make sense of a lot lol
I think it’s related to extroverted who get depressed and engage with sexual activity as a way of self harming. And I think while it could be expressed as depression, this case specifically it rather more of a manifestation of PTSD trauma response, which came from playing as both the victim and the perpetrator in MC personal life story.
An underlying cause/PTSD could also be MC was forced to mature too quickly in pretence of a good son, good brother, good friend. Human seek love that evoke what they want, what they need, and what makes them feel familiar or safe. Human also have a hard time distinguishing their own feelings when emotions and situations get entangled. When you force a person to mature too quickly, and put them in an complicated circumstance, they get trapped, mentally suffocating, leading survival instincts taking over, including senses became dull, memories fading or blurred, repeated visits of traumatic memories, and seeking safety/ground-ness.
In a sense, it’s also why porn or sex is such a big thing in the human culture right now. Cause broken children’s tend seek something that can fix them, anything, love, gratification, euphoric sensation from drugs and sex, while not aware how it develops into an addiction, an escapism, an outlet. Cause education system focus on making u a cog of the society, but not a healthy functional human being that have a good sense of self, and a good relationship with sex or any sort of addiction/euphoria/escapism.
I think it just hit the unfortunate snag of not fitting the parameters of the 'right' mental illness and so it doesn't make sense to a lot of us. I'm not gonna pretend to be the holy deity of severe depression and anxiety so i'll leave it at that but damn I hated this one. It was barely worth the time spent even if they wanted to use this as 'awareness' for self sabotaging behavior but an explanation is not an excuse and he did wrong by so many people that even the description of his mental illnesses isn't absolving him from his actions. Imma leave it at that cause I don't wanna be reminded of this manga again lolol
Lol no worries. Genuinely, I think the problem with this manhwa is that the author while perfectly depicting a serious issue, while has absolutely no real understanding of it, then try to bury it down under the pretence of “depression” or just a smutty poly ish love story. In a sense, it feels like a person who got close hand experience, either themselves or someone around them, but got gaslighted by society, so now in their story, they gaslighted readers.
I do have chronic depression and severe anxiety, along with a long list of (according to a friend) cocktail of mental and physical issues. In a way, I might be really dull or desensitized with stuff like this, cause for me it’s such a mundane thing. But if this manhwa or contents with similar affects stimulate or trigger you in a unpleasant/bad way, it’s a good call to avoid it and completely erase it from your mind lol
Have a nice time friend~ ^^