Honestly I think he's lying to himself at this point. He doesn't know how to feel a certain way so he's deluding himself into thinking he's in control cause that's all he really has at this point, since he can't control anything else.
Honestly I think he's lying to himself at this point. He doesn't know how to feel a certain way so he's deluding himself into thinking he's in control cause that's all he really has at this point, since he can't control anything else.