Dropped at chp 18. I can't stand when people use the love of a good person to get back/show off to the person they actually want to be with. That blonde alpha seems so sweet and the MC just went "Ik you like me but pretend to be my boyfriend in front of someone." Like no, ew, gtfo. Maybe if it's proven later that he's an asshole, I'll come back. But rn Asel that's the most dirtbag move I've seen in a while and I'm really fucking disappointed.
Why would he want to get back or show off to ML? He simply wants to get over his feelings, he even explained everything to Blondie and he agreed, possibly to use this to make Asel fall in love with him. Seems like Blondie takes much more chances than you.
It is to show to ML. But not for getting back or showing off. Bcs the failed kiss ML didn't make any personal contact with MC again, and MC was sad about that. He thought it's bcs his feelings was found out, so to reassure ML that MC didn't have feelings for ML he announced about having a boyfriend hoping their relationship could go back as before (occasionally texting and eating out together). It was so stupid
Yeah I know, I read the story, that's why I asked where all this "to get back/show off" comes from...
Idk why but I feel like a lot of people are reading this manhwa with rage making it out to be more than what it is
I understand that it's annoying to get cock blocked but Blondie knew what he was doing when he agreed to this. People reacting like everyone is as immature as they themselves are.
Sure I could understand if they were like "Dropped cuz no smut", but otherwise... some people have a very strange moral compass...
So you're saying it's okay to use the genuine feelings of someone else in order to benefit yourself? Moral compass? Wtf are you talking about? You sound like a horrible person. I may have worded it strangely in my original post but the blonde agreeing doesn't mean it's right to use him. The MC is not in love with him, he doesn't even like him. He just sees a chance to repair his relationship with the ML by using this blonde to his advantage. If you don't think that's scummy, you're the issue. Get off my post.
I come back here every now and again to re-read it. Every time I'm left sobbing. It doesn't matter that I have the whole thing pretty much memorized, I just can't help feeling devastated.
Maybe that's what it's about for me: the cycle repeats with each new god and beholder— the cycle of love and grief. I come back to this to experience that same bittersweet moment all over again. What is grief but love without anywhere to go?
Just like the beholder who has to keep going. Ok the last few scenes imply maybe the god can come back and interact subtly but I want so bad for him to wisk the beholder away so they could be together in heaven or the god's realm.
I find myself wanting more form this story and world that we just got a little bit of world building for. But then I remember that it conjured heartfelt and real sadness in me and I realize it doesn't need to be longer. It got in and out and did what it set out to do. Sometimes that's all you need, even if it's not all you want.
Maybe one day I'll be able to read this and not cry my eyes out but I kind of doubt it. Because to read this, for me, and not feel the love and grief the characters felt for how short of a time I knew them, would mean I was no longer human. Because to be human is to love and to cry and to wish for more.
Really upsetting to see an S tier plotline devolve into the amnesia + rape trope. I had a feeling it was coming (and after reading through some of the comments I see people saying this would happen) but honestly I'm so disappointed. For once I thought we'd get a good top that helped the bottom deal with trauma in a healthy, respectful way. Whatever, guess I shouldn't hope for better out of this genre :/
considering the author also wrote palace of bardo (which i personally haven't read but have seen very horrible reviews on)
it is to be expected lowkey
I dropped palace of barado for the same. The top was psychotic and tormented bottom through his second life. Truly irredeemable
Never in my life have I gone from a 5 star read to a 1 star in one chapter. Everything was going relatively well until they shoe-horned in a r@pe scene, destroyed the king's characterization up until that point, and then just rushed the ending. I read it all just to make sure the author wasn't going to actually have Michael end up with Albert only to see I was, in fact, not hallucinating. They ended up together. Or really Albert forced his will in Michael and they're going to continue in this sick song and dance until they die, I guess? And it was so fucking jarring that they had sex during the time Michael was in that child-like state. It was like the author was suddenly switched out for a sadistic, pedo, r@pist all of a sudden with those last chapters. And for what? To ruin that delicious tension and interesting dynamic? Heide (the aide I dunno if I spelled his name correctly) was the better choice romance wise for Michael. I'm so upset. Like genuinely I'm so mad.
i don’t want to say that we know albert better than the actual author but considering his character up until that point, he had been regarded as a wise king who cared for his subjects and would rather sacrifice himself than lose his kingdom. sure, he wasn’t the nicest person ever but he didn’t see like a fucking rapist. so the fact they made him force heide to watch as he forced himself on the mc was ridiculous. like this did not feel like the king we knew ?? also, up until this point, it’s not like he was obsessed with the mc and wanted him only! like there wasn’t a strong reason for his character to randomly switch up like that. this would’ve been an amazing slow burn but what did i expect for a manhwa with less than 40 chapters…
Wayyyy too short. Left so many unanswered questions. I mean I've read enough to know what probably happened and guess at what comes after that random ass ending, but it's still annoying for everything to just get wrapped up in the middle of the climax. Tbh it was very weak storytelling after the halfway mark. It doesn't make sense why the higher ups hid that the outsiders weren't human, especially since revealing that would just allow them to go ahead with their war plans. It also doesn't make sense why H-O2 didn't want Helm to reveal that. There was that hinted relationship between H-O2 and the alpha (that could have been fun to explore). We never found out if Coral Reef betrayed Helm, we never saw the inner forest, or figured out why H-O2 let Helm think he wanted to kill him all those years. We also never really found out what happened in those flashback scenes with everyone dead. Did H-O2 like actually kill all of Helm's partners? Basically there were so many guns that didn't go off, so to speak, and it was wild that they were brought up narratively only to never be touched on again or completely thrown out.
it wasn't the author's intention to leave these questions unanswered but manhwa wasn't their main job and they were struggling financially so they had to rush the story and end it at chap 40
Ah, I see. Well that's a shame, I hope they're doing better financially now.
I'm a sucker for the characters like the MC who have trauma and are very quiet, try their best to stay out of the way and follow rules. And that the MC can't really help but fall in love because MC is doing his best. Are there other BL manga with dynamics similar to this? I did see someone ask for similar plots but that's not necessarily needed for this. Just a quiet, demure bottom lol.
Regas, Black lotus, Everlasting love, After I left you...these are some similar BL which have quiet uke who always try their best..nonetheless these are good. The uke were quite pitiful too
Thank you, I'll check these out!
If it's not your thing, move on. Why are you kink shaming? In 2025? During Pride???? You guys are letting purity culture ruin you. Didn't your parents ever reach you that if you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say anything at all? If it turns out to be noncon, sure I can understand the complaints. But it's just kink and you guys are wet blankets.
Every time I see this update, I kick my feet and gush about it to my partners. I'm so in love with the story and these characters. I'm incapable of being normal about them!
I hate that the ML had to forgive his parents in the end, I hated that the MC wouldn't let that issue go. His parents ABUSED and NEGLECTED him all his life. You shouldn't have to forgive people like that. And don't start with the "but they're family, you have to forgive family, they're the only family you have." I only have one appendix but I still cut that out of me when it became toxic to my body.
Ml forgave his family cuz they realised their mistakes at last, they realised the way they were biased and neglected their child. They were atlast ashamed of their past acts that they couldn't even make an eye contact w the ml, they know the times they have missed just by lookin at their grandson but u have to understand the society they were living in had shaped up their mind in a discriminated way, the way all ppl behaved in this even the ml. The only sane enough here was mc's mother, mc and the professor who also shaped up his mind after hearing mc's rant abt omegas getting discriminated. Sure the way they behaved will forever will be imprinted on the ml but them apologising and him forgiving was the small and new step towards of the change that might contribute to the betterment of the society rather than making them guilty abt it for their whole life, they can use their remaining time left to contribute for even a small change. Your body can survive even w appendicitis removal cuz it doesn't affect the ongoing body functions much But sure a family or close relationships do
MC not forced that tho, he just don't wanna Jihyung have regrets later on..
I wanna read it but only if none of the genders swap. Don't want to devote a lot of time if one of them switches to omega.
yes it is alpha x alpha till the end, fear not fellow wanderer.