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Grab a bunch of ice, hold it/put it on your face/anywhere u want to and you can also take a really really really cold shower. The shock from the cold distracts me when I get thoughts like this

Honestly speaking, it took me 2 failed attempts and several months of severe depression to decide I should stop actively trying to kill myself, in the beginning, I would walk around hoping something would just kill me, a bus would run me over when I crossed the road, my weight dropped severely and I was struggling in college, but then a manic phase started and that's when I started working on gradually getting better, I promised myself I would never cut my skin again no matter how bad I want to do it, but luckily for me, the pandemic happened, I stayed at home and reflected on myself.


Saying I didn't have any suicidal thoughts would be a lie, my brain is still stuck in 2019, I'm terribly confused, being bipolar doesn't make it any easy, during tough times I try to find an anchor which is my cats, if I died who would feed them? Who would take them to the vet? Who would take care of them?
So as silly as it may sound, I live for my little cats.

Honestly I think talking to someone about it does the trick. I may sound mean and I'm sorry but you should go to therapy and talk about what you're going through. If you can find the right resources and the right help, I think you can get better, and I hope you can get better. I hope you feel better in the future and please take care of yourself

I hope ur doing well now!! Thank you for living up until today ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~
Pls be well and always taking care of urself