1-800-wtf's Things

For no particular reason other than satisfying my curiosity, by show of hands, how many of us on this website are African GL/Yuri/BL/Yaoi readers, specifically Black Africans and just Black in general? Nigeria is gay as hell (even though the country doesn't want us to be great), so I know some of us have to be here.

(If you saw me post this for first time and delete it, no, you didn't.)

Because I really have no where else to turn to and posting publicly on the internet makes me anxious but y’all are kind of chill here so here I am:
So some years ago I moved counties for university, my first year was cool and I made 2 friends and met other acquaintances through them. It’s 3 years into my degree and I realized over the years I have less and less friends around me that I can decide to go see or hang out with without needing to get on a train to go to a whole different city 3-4h away. My friends from first year either transferred or we stopped talking bc I got blocked for reasons idk till today and as much as I love those friends in other cities they have their own friends and from their own countries of which I’m not a part of. I feel welcomed and I participate but it’ll never be the same as being one of them, you get? I love people from my country but a lot of them are religious fanatics who want “equally yoked” friends, every time I’ve been approached by people from my country it’s always to be invited to their church. The most normal interaction I’ve had so far are with Muslim girls from my country but I just can’t deal with religious people. I’m queer and trans (maybe idk for sure yet) and I don’t want to have to deal with all that after finally leaving my homophobic ass country. I don’t want to feel like I’m not fully understood by the friends who also live really far away or find friends around me from my own community who wouldn’t accept the full me. The real option would be to find new friends and start building my own community ig but idk where to start, I’m not a non sociable person but leaving my house to places other than my usual (i.e school and the grocery store) fills me with so much anxiety and dread i just want to stay in my bed all day (it’s also cold asf outside). I know comparison is the thief of joy but I’ve met a number of people since I moved and seeing everyone travel or with their own friends and community or just out and about by themselves trying things makes me feel like I’m failing at this uni abroad thing. I have tried to download apps to find friends but there are rarely any people in my city on those apps since I don’t live in the capital city. I’m a broke student (bc ofc) who spend all my free time indoors when I’m not in class or at work. Blah blah blah Any advice for your girl?? Boy?? Fully autonomous human being. Thank you!! Xoxo(￣∇￣")