I don't know what to feel about this. This way too similar to my situation like 2 years ago back in college (I'm still a college student rn, a senior) and it's kind of uncomfortable to see how identical this is with mine. It's so eerie.
Like how it started with her being curious with sex and how her virginity was taken with a cheating dude (the difference with us is that I honestly didn't know back then the guy was with someone) and after I got taste of being fucked, I had fuck buddies left and right cannot last in a day without fuck had fucked to whenever even at school, library you name it, and had multisome. Well, lucky for her the scandal was immediately deleted and shi haha mine's been passed around our dept so it kept me swirled my mind and anxious to the point that I hate going to school anymore. It got me so depressed and socially paranoid. On my mind any guy that would try to date me, mainly guys from our dept made me think that he already watched it and just want to fuck me.
Don't get me wrong I really regret doing those things and wished I those times didn't occurred. And I actually stopped with it coz I realized that guys, well most of guys, are just trying to get on my pants so I'm so wary about them that I'm on celibacy for years now haha.
Stopping with it made me respect my body and love myself more by not allowing anyone or any guy to have access with me anymore and just focused on my career, studies and capabilities than just be degraded into a whore, a relief hole.
I know I should've respected my body the first time but idk ig maybe I seek validation externally that time and feel inferior so it got me hooked on whoever made me feel needed. But thinking about it now, it's just so dumb.
I feel Iike I see my past self on Haeju and I want to advise her that seeking validation from guys thru sex to feel needed and have confidence weren't a good foundation with building yourself. Ik it's a phase but I honestly didn't want the younger girls to go thru the same phase/scenario as this.
If there's anyone who are in the similar scenario right now., I just want to tell you that you worth so much than that. You are so beautiful, intelligent, capable and too kind for you to be just a hole for those kind of scumbags. They don't deserve you. They don't deserve the access on you. I didn't say that you shouldn't have sex forever but find someone who is worthy of your embrace, your love. Cause fuck buddies are just there for pleasure but istg you'll be left alone when things get awry/emotional. You can't really rely on them forever. It's just fleeting.
You only have yourself so have more respect with your body and take care of it. There's so much more in life than just carnal pleasure. You can do so much than that.
That's all sorry for the rambling. I just feel like I need to say this and just want to offload these feelings anonymously haha. Anw the story was so fucked up haha well what do I expect with pornwha
Sorry that happened to you, I feel like you shouldn't continue with this pornhwa if its that personal for you, hope you are in a better place than before
Hello dear stranger. I can't change the past but I can hope for your greater day. I don't want to dictate what's wrong or right. I just know you're already doing better.
Virtual hugs with consent, sister! I hope you’re doing great now
I might not really again lol I just find it intriguing coz of the art style but then as the story progress I got deja vu haha. Tho thank u for the concern
Well, yea can't really change the past and I'm definitely doing much better than I was 2yrs ago. Tho like life's hard rn but at least I left that situation
Thank you! Its a virtual hug but it makes me feel warm
Thank you sm hope for you to have a good life also! Thank u for understanding ╥﹏╥
I've actually been doing good rn maybe I got too emotional with reading it while I'm already stressed with doing two thesis simultaneously ┗( T﹏T )┛ Anw thanks for your concerns! I will def live as a proud engr in the future! And will continue to live my life the best while trying to not live astray :>>
I dont know what to say but I hope you are doing fine now and I hope someone beside you is there giving you plenty of geniune and chaste hugs. I understand how you feel. When I was in college, it was really the height of pheromones, I did a lot of online thing too and I was scared that it might get leaked. You will get throught this and remember your life is just starting and you will always go through anything!! Stay strong!!
Lmao hope you didn’t get an STD, also you lost an opportunity of becoming an onlyfans creator, you can still try, since you already have the experience LOL
No, I fortunately did not got STD from it haha. And second of all, I clearly stated that I don't like the transactional sex anymore on the latter part as it exhausts me mentally makes me paranoid and depressed, part of it because of the mind games the guys play, but mainly of it is because of people like you who degrades me and be rude like that just because of my past while ignoring the work I've put into myself for the better life, more than just a sex toy. So with experience or not I don't have to be an OF creator just because of it haha. Please don't be that rude with someone who tries to change themselves. I already realized what I did was wrong and was shameful but it doesn't mean I should've led that life continuously just because I had "experience". I had choices and I chose not to led that kind of life so don't mock my choice. You didn't know the hell I went through just to be strong and be mentally alright haha
Cute little edgelord over here
Will do thank u!! U too stay strong!
Nini is like an orange cat disguised as a white one lololol
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IF U MISS THIS SERIES YOU CAN JUST WATCH THE YT VIDEOS OF THE AUTHOR
It's "I am Maru" on YT they have like short episodes of Maru's random day hehe
All I could see on this story are big boobs, big back, big dihs and pretty face (also pretty crying face)
Thank you for the savory meal author-nim Now I'm so awake (after being awake for like 4 days because of this effin 2 thesis haha) I'm now wide awake than ever and had motivation.
I'll be back for more yummy meals in the future
YES CURRIES ARE THE BEST! Glad they be making my fave dish here
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The plot fits the title, it's too much going on....
No wonder the artstyle seems so familiar, rather similar to refund high and ghost teller my all time faves from the past. I really enjoy the studio's works love they still goin Might find their other works! Since the plot is bound to be interestinggg