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Has anyone here ever feel extremely scared or to be exact have your whole spirit go down a cliff everytime someone offers some help? Is that weird? Why do I feel that way... Like I would be in an absolute bind and in a desperate need of help but I would never accept help from people offering help doesn't matter if it's genuine or not. I would be scared to the point of tears but I would never say it or show that I am scared. I just mask shit out with a normal stoic face and kindly reject the help. Is that weirdd
Like today my laptop wasn't doing her best I guess bc she kept turning off on me so i just sighed unconsciously and my friend asked what was wrong. I was gonna say nothing and proceed to make a mental note to keep it tgt and shut up. For some reason I suddenly realized how I feel like if I said it then and there, they would be put on the spot and forced to help me with my problems. Like that would be so fucking crazy. I hate putting people on the spot for my own problems so I just don't do that. Maybe that got me to this point?? Idkk but why do i feel super scared and to the point I'm crying atm bc i feel restless inside after simply being asked if I needed help. I could be overthinking but I don't get it. Why would my body cry over that??

Someone??