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Hoo... I'm so frustrated with everyone except the mc, though I understand the deepness and how interrelated the story needs to be, it's heartbreaking to see a reflection of my life here irl.
I sympathize deeply, that it is for our own good (the harshness of words to make us "strong-willed", the constant "do this-do that", "this is better, this is bad") feelings were hurt, feelings were belittled, and it keeps pushing you back instead of forward that evrything will blow over with a single mistake. It feels like no one's there for you, and if you rebel, then what? To which home do you go to? To who do you go seek comfort? None, and it's so conflicting that you're left with:
"Do I stay and be the obedient, emotionless, no choice puppet?"
Or
"Do I go and live my life, to forget everything and evryone I've known and familiarized with, to live in isolation because I chose this, I chose my freedom for everything I've lived
I FUCKING KNEW THAT ORANGE HAIRED GIRL WAS ONE OF EM, SHE'S SUSPICOUSLY CLINGY TO MC, plus the mention of her stopping the pills made her flinch... haysst tanginang yan, and I was about to drop suspicions nung sabi niya hanapin si mc, siya pla spy, pinatay p tuloy isang fren ╥﹏╥