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I have always despised manipulative, controlling narcissistic individuals.
If you lack empathy your existence  is just an empty vessel with a mortal body and a waste of an eternal soul.

things u cannot stand in BL

Do you ever lay comfortably in bed with the covers pulled up to your neck and fart a loud one then trap the smell and pull the covers over your head and breathe in the fresh smell? I do.

Traumatized as a child, abused, unloved for nothing, a long list of sadness that is never a good excuse to become a cruel subject nor to bask in an eternal inner conflicts, now I would make you just question - whose answer is already clear in all your troubled journey with Doumeki. Say it without too many tricks and honestly: how much are you afraid of happiness?

http://www.mangago.me/home/photo/3702018/#image
I've been searching since yesterday, I am absolutely sure that I've read this but i can't find where...
Does anyone know the source please?

Since my request didn’t get a response last time: Recommendations for yaois with a semi who is mentally challenged or has a learning disability?

So I've never seen a bl drama (English subbed please) any recommendations on a good starter one?....I dont like sad..but I love sexy. Thank ya much!!(づ￣ ³￣)づ

I don't know if it was just me but I couldn't understand a thing about the last updates since I hadn't followed this for some time, I noticed other people couldn't understand either so I skimmed thorough this and MODS to make a guide with the characters and main events, I hope it can be of some help.

This obviously contains spoilers so don't read if you haven't reached chapter 6 yet



















《Characters》

Haru: Was a simple lowlife who wanted to leech off a yakuza.

Yukitaka: Biological son of the Ichijou boss and legitimate heir of the group but isn't part of the group yet. Shigure's younger half-brother.

Shigure: Illegitimate son of the Ichijou boss but wasn't part of the group, rumors went around that he did the dirty work .

Shiro: MODS main character. He was working on a brothel as guarantee for his parents' debt but his father took the money he earned and ran away.

Yagami: Ichijou head.

Sasaki: Random yakuza, was Haru's lover.



《Storyline》

- Haru was a Sasaki's plaything and fell in love with Shigure.

- Sasaki got addicted to the drugs he was supposed to sell and ran away, but got caught and was banished.

- Haru joined the Ichijou group and started working under Yagami.

- Shigure was banished even though he wasn't supposed to be a yakuza. In the end, rumors of him doing dirty work were true, he didn't want to receive orders from his father anymore so he cut his own finger and left.

- Shigure started working at a mahjong parlor owned by Yagami.

*3 years later*

- Haru found Shiro (15) and asked Shigure to take care of him.

- Shigure started to get attached to Shiro so he made a promise with him to leave to a different town the next day and live a normal life but got run over by a car next to the meeting place, right before Shiro's eyes.

(It was said Shigure died because he knew too much so maybe he got killed because letting him escape to a different town was a risk to all that valuable information)

(But was it the Ichijou or a different group behind his death????? If it was the Ichijou then that means Shigure got killed by his own father)

- Haru felt guilty because he was the one who took Shiro to Shigure, he wouldn't have tried to run away and died if he never met Shiro and got attached to him.

- Shigure was the only person to ever show Shiro real kindness so his death scarred him deeply, he couldn't stop selling himself and went back to his old life.

(Haru was sleeping when Shigure left so maybe he got insomnia because he couldn't sleep thinking something bad would happen again or because it made him remember what happened and feel guilty)

- Haru saw Yukitaka (15) at Shigure's funeral.

*1 year later*

- Haru searched for Shiro who had disappeared after Shigure's death.

- The group offered Haru the management of a store where Shiro would work as a prostitute. Haru accepted because he couldn't save Shiro but being his pimp was a way to watch over him.

*9 years later*

MODS storyline

*1 year after*

- Yukitaka was required by the group to hide in a non-yakuza's house for a month after afight with another group. Yagami recommended Haru.

- Haru wanted to quit the store and break all ties with the yakuza so Yagami said between the lines that he could if he took Yukitaka in for a month.

- The month didn't end but Yagami said it was time for Yukitaka to return and broke the promise of letting Haru quit the shop and gave him another yakuza business to run instead.

Am I the only one that really wants to make a huge impact on the world, and have people remember my name? It's kind of depressing that our lives are useless, and our life has no impact on the future as it is. There are people in space, people discovering things no one has managed to do before, there are geniuses in the world right now probably doing something really ground breaking right now. So what are us, the average people doing? Our name will eventually die out, and we won't be remembered again. We aren't special or talented in any way like these people, our lives are meaningless. We are taught that every one leaves behind their impact, but the reality is none of do. We're nothing more than average people who won't be remembered.

would ya believe me if i said i got diagnosed with leukemia its acute myoloid or something my mom and sisters are brawling outside and im here reading yaoi i just read the 10 years where i loved u...haha im supposed to cry but i dont feel anything ...i guess im really gonna die wtf saying it is scary

I have made more than 10 accounts here and deleted them all.
I have read enough manga for a lifetime.
I have written here more than I have written on paper .
I have invested my time and passion here for so long.
No regrets, it was a pleasant phase in my life.
I have to say goodbye now, forever. Really this is it guys. I know a lot of u by name and character. I have watched ppl go and never come back. I have watched ppl come around a lot too. I have read a lot of stories, problems, shared vent. I feel like I guys are a family .
That is why I feel obligated to bow to u guys and really thank u for taking care of this wandering soul, thank u for answering my vent and answering my questions. Thank u for ur words and ur agreement and disagreements.
I have to say goodbye. It is that time for me. I’m always like this. I experience every single thing in a phase and I never stay nor make things stay. It is just my nature. I have to say goodbye and I think I won’t be here anymore to check on any of u! :(
I really want y’all to be happy and START RIGHT NOW. work on urself to be happy right now.
Those who want to lose weight, do it.
Those who have troubles with their sexuality/live life...I just wanna say we are just phases in ppl’s lives so live ur life accosting ur OWN judgment.
Be responsible, take charge of ur life guys.
Fight negativity.
Fight ur inner demons.
And lastly take care of urselves y’all.

I don’t think I will come here anymore but I’m gonna miss each and everyone one of u. Really I mean it. Some names here !!

@Being-u ( I finished ur lists already lmfao, I already thanked u!! But again thank u really, as I said before u r so smart omo I’m jealous and I m also the one who is in the medical field as u!! :(( )

@dragobonita u helped me a lot before and I was anonymous. U r such a kind a loving person that I wish u happiness whole heatedly really. Have a nice life!

@phasethemoon , @bts stole yo jams ... u guys are really funny with fine taste.

@ermar @hamesthejames @nana @ella... I guess u guys were a gang? Lmfao u guys were cute tho (I no longer see u guys anymore :( )

@minji
Sorry again, yeah I was the one that had a fight with u, was a really bad day :(


@youreadthiswrong I fought so much with u lmfao, I guess we can agree to disagree anyways have a nice summer!!

@littlebirdy u might not know it, but I really made me happy with a comment u made to my post. It was really something and I really appreciate it.

@kyozana keep up the good work famm, don’t mind the haters, people only throw rocks at people that shine

@blueagle
Yeah I was the one who loved ur lists and asked u to add golden days :)) thank u for ur fine taste and generosity to actually listen to my request.

@thereisalwaysabut ...@vikikiki @zeus
And a lot IM SORRY a lot of other people I failed to recall their usernames but I still love u equally!!

I guess this is it for me, stay healthy and happy guys!! Always be happy and look forwards and forget the past.
Really thank u. And goodbye.
I’m off now, *bows deeply* (▰˘◡˘▰)
The End.

I read a fanfiction once, about yokozawa n kirishima. Kirishima have terminal illness n was spending his last days with yoko n his daughter. While takano gave up on pursuing ritsu n started having feelings for yoko n said that he will wait for yoko this time. N after 10 years of kirishima's death yoko n takano live happily ever after.

I bawled my eyes out when kirishima died （/TДT)/

BREAK MY HEART AGAIN!

I've had a crush on this guy (let's call him Mr. N) for 5 years now and it never went away. We've only had 1 proper conversation within that 5 years AND i basically ended the convo by ignoring his last few words and saying bye (╯°Д °)╯╧╧ Welp, I think the reason we never had conversations in the first place is bc I would always avoid his gaze and ignore him whenever we were near each other.

When I first met Mr. N, I acknowledged his talent at playing the piano! He's REALLYYY gooood (I think that's how my crush started). Whenever I would see him with his friends, he's always laughing! He laughs like an idiot but it's the kind of laugh that makes you laugh too. He's so awkward and we have NOTHING in common. One time, he overheard me talking to my friends about a tv show and he just butted in and said that he used to watched the tv show but not anymore bc it started to suck.

If I were to list down the things I like about Mr. N.. the list would probs include: piano skills, face, height, smile, laugh.. but beyond those, I know nothing about him!! (I've met his parents and brother tho btw but like we're not that close)

Within the past 2 years, I've noticed how much Mr. N has gotten closer to this girl (Ms. A).. Ms. A and I went to the same high school and now we kinda go to the same uni in the same program. Ms. A is super pretty and confident and nice. Ms. A had the confidence to carry out convos with Mr. N and whenever they talked... I can feel that they both liked each other? It's kinda like a thing right? Like an outsider can tell when two ppl like each other. I'm the outsider, and I know that both Ms. A and Mr. N like each other. However, they are not dating yet.

There's no way I'm confessing LOL.. I don't even love him! I just had a crush for 5 years!! I thought crushes were super easy to forget (and it's not like I only had a crush on him within those 5 years)... But tonight, my heart especially hurts. I wish I'd gotten to know him! I wish I didn't avoid convos with him! I wish I was confident enough to look into his gaze! I wish I was the one by his side! I wish... he smiled at me!

but my wishes never come true
and Mr. N will be with Ms. A
I'll forget
it's okay
i dont love him

Does anyone have information on Hyperventilation Season 2? I've seen some short clips of season 2 floating around and I just saw a sex scene possibly from season 2 https://www.facebook.com/176303665865094/posts/1141680755994042/ and a bitch really wants to know if the author has ready created S2 and released it somewhere secret or will she ever post it on Patreon anytime soon?

It’s not as happy as you’d think...it’s actually quite sad at first the story of a lonely dick with no place to belong to always STANDING in air no room for it to go inside,until finally mustering up its courage to ask for a home and then at last being accepted and entering a place of its own....sigh I’m happy ლ(´ڡ`ლ)

What is this? Shoot the victim? Let’s just forget about the times the seme raped the uke. Let’s forget about the shitty things the seme did. Let’s forget about the fact that things started off with the seme using him for inspiration. Let’s forget that the seme kept trying to use the uke’s status as an omega to trap him into a relationship he didn’t want in the first place.

All this after going through the biggest shock of his life-suddenly becoming an omega. He couldn’t even find work like he could before. He no longer had a safe place to live. Then he has all this pressure coming from the seme for something he’s not ready for and then bam he’s pregnant.

His original instinct wasn’t to keep the baby, but did so because he was convinced to keep it. And pregnancy makes a person super hormonal. Then he finally starts to feel comfortable with the seme when he has the baby. All his fears resurface and he overheard the part of the semes conversation that just confirms his fears.

He is still homeless. He grew up with the knowledge that his mom “paid rent” to his dad by sleeping with him till she couldn’t take it anymore. He doesn’t want that life for himself and it drives his need to not depend on Dojin, but it also gives him the idea that he can “pay rent” to an alpha and not be homeless anymore.

When he finds out that he bonded, he was in shock, and decided to do what he needed to do to survive. There is a part of him that cares for Dojin, but it’s hidden underneath all those other layers. He didn’t choose to bond like a person chooses to marry. However it happened it was subconscious. He still has no prospects for jobs-Dojin had him quit the one good job he had, making it even harder for him to get back in his feet even if he wasn’t bonded.

Sorry, but Dojin is no saint and the uke is a realistic character with actual delevopment. I think it’s refreshing to see a person with a rough background who doesn’t engage in serious self harm, psychological torture, or rape other people.

Stop with this shitty “blame the victim” attitude.