So, it may be no surprise, but I have an affection for things like biting, choking, hitting, etc. when it comes to sex; I have been this way for as long as I can remember. Let me explain.
Even as a child, (yes, I know, scary) I have liked it when the characters/people that I admire in a TV show/book/cartoon are harmed in some way. I liked it when Daphne got tied up on Scooby Doo... and so on.
Currently, my weird fantasies have been given an outlet in these strange and lovely mangas/manhwas that I read, so I'm very happy. But I have to wonder... why is it that I turned out this way? I have a few theories, but I can't be certain about anything because I'm not a psychologist. So I want your opinions.
What do you think shaped your physical interests? Personally, I think it's because I was watching a show about crime at a very young age, and there were a few risque scenes in the dramatizations that often got rough and violent. I think my weird fantasies started to pop up around the same time, so this is the safest conclusion I've come to so far.
Oh, and I should probably include a disclaimer: I've never once found any sort of pleasure in hurting real people, or watching real people get hurt. Especially as a child. I was very empathetic and, no, I didn't run around killing the neighborhood animals or anything like that... As far as I know, I'm perfectly sane (in the sense that I don't want to bring anyone harm or watch other people do it). My kinks are strictly fantasy.
... One More Thing.
The reason I ask is because I'm curious if anyone else has had a similar experience. I always thought I was weird for having these thoughts, but I've grown enough to know that I'm definitely not alone... at least in terms of the weird kinks. So to those who do enjoy a bit of rough play, or anything really, why do you think you grew up to like what you like?
well even I can't say anything bcz it's been a year since I have started to make a story , u see I kill every character so brutally and if ever I think of them being a couple or friends I kill them more brutally I don't get satisfied until all of them aren't dead ,I just don't ,the worst part is that every character is a person from my school most of them my friends and I hate how I don't feel sorry for it ,even my friends r now scared of me except one bcz she is like me,though she kills all military people while I kill normal people like a guy would be just walking back to his home and bam I killed him sometimes it's just that I want everyone dead even in real life (sorry if I scared u )
I think you're perfectly fine! And while I'm not a psychological either, I do agree and think that it stems from what our minds pay attention to more as a kid. Examples (from other people and myself) being the snake and Mogly scene from the Jungle Book, murder/crime dramas, etc. I think it's mostly.. Luck, to put it in weird terms, lol. Some people pay more attention to females than they do males. Some vice versa. It's called preference. Is there a scientific explaination for what drives our individual preferences? .... Probably not. But this is the best I have for you!
I think I am a masochist. I tend to be aggressive and can be quite a sadist, but I secretly enjoy seeing someone and imagine myself getting rough treatment during sex. I also read rape and slave tags because it arouses me, yet irl I do hate the fact that rape is a crime. I am not sure if this can be linked to my childhood.
On the other hand, people think I am lesbian because I adore girls so much and I also cut my hair in pixie. I am not, in fact I do get sexually attracted by men. This might be linked to my childhood since I met annoying and useless men at young age. I never show favoritism to men, Í think it's not worth my time. I am not a feminist and don't have romantic feelings towards female. I also don't have any problem to interact with male. It's just that, men don't get anything near to affection that the female get. (I think I'm getting sidetrack lol)
Thanks! I was worried that someone was going to bust out the handcuffs (which I would unfortunately like). Also, when you refer to the snake and Mogly scene, what do you mean? I have never seen the jungle book... (⌒▽⌒)
Wait! Did i read it right? You hate that rape in real life is a crime?
Youre not alone with the weird kinks. I feel happy when I see people in pain. Not physical pain but psychological pain. I feel pleasure to watch a person suffer from their unrequited love.Just to see his sad face, i rejected the guy i like and acted like i dont like him. Well at least your kink doesnt affect your real life ╮(￣▽￣)╭
u r overthinking it. this is just fantasy, most of us will never get turned on in real life by these and hurt people. i like those mangas too, but in real life i like fluffy sweet relationships. lol
opss no i mean i hate that the fact that i like rape and i agree that it's a crime. i mean....yeah i also think the way i wrote is misleading .__.
Do you rate the mangas that you add to your list? If so, what is your thought process?
For me, most of my mangas are 3-stars. I've never given anything 1 star before... but I've come close. Probably because if I really don't like them, I don't want to bother with adding them to my list.
So this is how my process goes.
1- N/A (not even worth evaluating)
2- Some potential, but overall dull and cliche.
3- A bit cliche, but cute. Art is decent.
4- Will definitely reread again and again! Either in need of more chapters or more sex, but a great work of art one way or another. This is where I put great doujinshis sometimes.
5- Usually manhwas/shonen mangas fit into this category. Pretty much everything that I'm looking for depending on the genre; sex, action, art, plot.
I either give 5 or nothing
1-terrible
2- also terrible/just bad, but I was in an okay mood (my most common rating :')
3- okay/good
4- as good as it gets/great (only my favorites get this rating)
5- unnatainable (perfect stories don't exist)
Yeah we think the same way. I usually give three, four or five stars. Three are just like, okay it was nice. Four are those I liked and will reread. Five are those I will definitely remember and reread lot's of times.
I have some kind of point list (or stars)
for ok - 0 / good +1, great+2/ bad-1, worst -2
I 'evaluate' art/drawing, plot or storyline, the story itself, characters, also the genre (you can't compare bi no isu with jappa no amane) thats how I do it :)
Honestly I don’t even rate sometimes I do if I really like the story but I always forget x
I've never given anything below a 3 star because once I start reading something, I'm usually determined to read it to the end. Only times I drop a manga is because I've found something more interesting to read and not because I hated it.
Anyways, my 3-5 star ratings go like this:
3- Meh, not as interesting as I thought it was or the ending could have been done better but not terrible overall. I don't hate it.
4- I like this and enjoyed reading it. Would I read it again? Maybe. Might recommend this to others. (Most of my ratings fall into this)
5- I LOVE THIS SO MUCH!!! 10/10 WILL REREAD AGAIN AND AGAIN! WILL RECOMMEND THIS!
I mark everything I ever read as 'read' so I don't accidentally read boring ones twice.
Mangas that I think are worth re-reading I tag with what it's about.
I only use the star system with mangas I absolutely love or truly hate, which I give five stars and one star respectively.
I've only used the stars about six times altogether.
For me it's :
1- I dislked it really badly, even hated it. Wish I could forget about it.
2- Disappointed
3- Ok, but wouldn't re-read it
4- Liked it/ Loved it (I think most of the things I read are rated this, since I'm picky and look at the comments/convos/tags before starting) - On my re-read list.
5- Fav ! Loved it ! I can read them again and again.
No stars : When I'm confused about wether or not I liked it and can't decide on a rating, so I put nothing until the time I have the courage to read them again and maybe make a choice.
0 - I don't left it blank because I would confuse myself for forgetting to rate it.
1 - Shitty and not worth my time. I would rate minus or throw it away
2 - Almost shitty, but can improve.
3 - Average. Easily forgotten.
4 - I liked it but would likely not read it again. I had fun and enjoy reading it.
5 - Favourite. I could read again and recommend without hesitation.
My list: Definitely will read again. Personal favourite and have a soft spot in my kokoro.
Do you guys ever have dreams that make you question your existence/sanity when you wake up? I had a dream like that last night. To summarize, I was seeing things from the perspective of [um, maybe don't read this if you cherish your innocence] a short lesbian attempting to peg a tall, beautiful blond woman. But honestly, it isn't the weirdest dream I've ever had.
I should also mention that dreaming about sex isn't super uncommon for me... considering the amount of time I spend on this godless site. But it is always a bit disappointing when the context is strange. I'd prefer to dream about normal things for once, though.
Also, does anyone else feel sensations in their sleep? Pain for example. For me, I can feel it when I'm hurt, and I can taste, smell and hear things almost as vividly as I can in real life... Yeah, that has its pros and cons.
Dreams are the portrayal of your innermost subconscious desires you know (・。-; lol but people get weird dreams all the time. And if you're mostly on this site and read a lot of manga with different themes then you might tend to get weird ass dreams majority of the time.The anime I'd recommend you to watch is - Asagao to Kase san when it comes out. (๑◕ㅂ▰) I only feel one sensation when I dream and that is pleasure, my olfactory system might have been active at certain times but that's all. You feel pain, wow that's interesting, so if someone butchered you in your dreams then...(⊙…⊙ )
Dreams are fascinating. I love and hate them, because they're so abstract but they are like personalized/interactive movies in a way. I really should chill out with the weird things I read, but...
To be fair, I started experiencing these vivid dreams at a very young age. It could just be a product of a hyperactive imagination. I'm also prone to sleep paralysis moreso than what is probably natural, so that can't help.
As for the pain, I have experienced being shot in my dreams and it manifested in a dull burning sensation in my chest that more or less disappeared when I woke up, though I could still remember it. But the pain is generally concentrated around my wrists and arms. I have experienced the sensation of "dying" at some point... via some sort of disease that my subconscious never specified. Though, thankfully, I have yet to be butchered.
A dream analysis expert can help you if you want to know more about what your dreams signify. Sleep paralysis does not have an authenticated treatment but it seems that your sleep paralysis is not that severe so it's ok. I had experienced sleep paralysis when I was young and many of my friends said that supernatural elements might be the cause but I don't usually believe in hocus pocus so no. All the best and I hope you have REM dreams, instead of alpha or beta ones ;)
Thanks! I'll keep that in mind, though I'd hate to traumatize the poor analyst that has to listen to my nonsense. And worry not, sleep paralysis has less to do with supernatural elements and more to do with poor sleeping posture. I lay on my back sometimes, and I have back problems- therefore, I sometimes paralyze myself. It happens.
Best of luck to you, and may you be blessed with many [non-insane] pleasure dreams!
Lol, yes poor sleeping posture is one of the causes of sleep paralysis and thanks but I haven't had pleasing dreams or any dream for a long time ╮(￣▽￣)╭
I think it's normal. Once, I dreamt I was giving chaste kisses in my friend and when I woke up I felt very guilty because he has a girlfriend (and he is just my friend). Nothing happened between us and honestly, I don't desire him, we get along very well, but we are just friends, you know.
Well, I rambling here, what I want to say is that dreams are not just what you desire (I mean, people have nightmares, right?), it's just what you see and think in your day and sometimes is nonsense. If you don't feel attraction for real woman, you are not lesbian/bi.
Right, I think that sometimes we are capable of seeing our subconscious desires in our dreams but other times, it is probably just a lot of mind scribble being translated into visuals.
Like someone spinning a wheel in your brain to decide what you're going to think about while you're asleep. *spins once* Okay, we will use character A: [mr. friend] and character B [you] in this setting *spins once more* [school] doing this activity *spins one last time* [kissing]. Great, role clip!
> In other words, dreams are quite possibly auto-generated.
weirdest dream i got is i was doing it with my very straight female friend. (she's a lowkey fujoshi but IRL is still different and she has a bf)
what made the dream weird is because i never got sexually attracted to her. and i do know if i am attracted to a woman. and we are just BFFs. i woke up WTF-ing
Dreams are your royal road to your sub-consciousness, meaning these are your repressed desires and your brain is manifesting it during your sleeping state when you are not in control.
everytime i dream its always my pov and theres stairs and slip off them thats it nothing more
i also remember having a dream where everyone in my college was naked and i was shamed for wearing clothes
Morning! I am not surprised, but my dream last night was very strange. I recall swimming, video game physics and most annoyingly- being repeatedly stabbed by a worm creature. That really hurt, too.
I have had... a terrible day. An awful day full of defeat. I feel like burnt bread. I don't even know what that means, but I feel it.
Anyway, I have come to the bitter conclusion that my first semester of college will be an unfortunate waste of effort and time.
In any case, please recommend something that has cheered you up during a sad time- preferably a manga or even an anime.
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/tadaima_okaeri/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/anatolia_story/ I would definitely recommend these first ones a shonuen ai-ish Yaoi and second one is a romance really good totally recommend reading
Just read any manga that is updated recently and has the comedy tag and watch any anime with the comedy tag. Or watch some funny movies like 'Naked' or something, that'll surely cheer you up :)
Have you watched/read Orenchi no Furo Jijou? I definitely recommend it if you're looking for something light and funny :>
(CAUTION: contains hawt mermen, bromance, comedy, fluff...and a cliffhanger, damn it ;-;)
HIGH FIVE ( ⌒o⌒)人(⌒-⌒ )v I lubed that!
*attempts to complete the high five*
(￣ε(#￣)Σ (° ○ °; )v
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*Attempts to smile*
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These replies have put me in a better mood already... Thank you, kind strangers.
༼つ☉┏益┓⊙༽つ No problemo, what are strangers for? (◕ ◕)
Please recommend some BL mangas in which the seme is an asshole. Preferably one where he has a warm side to him, but anything is fine.
I've already read http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/hina_wa_mitsuiro_no_koi_ni_torawareru/ and http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/hogu_hagyeongsu/
Check them out if you want to!
this one is cute
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/dounimo_nannai_soushi_souai/
this fits also
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/hana_to_junketsu/
I absolute recommend this - but its still ongoing but you can 'read' the raws till the end
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/to_take_an_enemys_heart/
here- not sure about the warm side but they are not complete assholes
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/yoru_to_asa_no_uta/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/risou_no_koibito/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/royal_fiance/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/hero_heel/
http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/if_you_hate_me_that_much/
caste heaven
pick out the semes in this one. http://www.mangago.me/home/mangalist/43415/
How many of you would agree to a poly-amorous relationship? I have thought about it and I am having a hard time deciding whether it would be fun or too troublesome to deal with. Well, I guess it's different depending on how serious you would want the relationship to be.
What do you think?
I don't wish to have one but I think it depends on each of us and what needs we wish to satisfy with our partner.
For example I am very contented with my relationship. Feeling safe in a relationship is a miracle. For example I fall asleep in less then 5 minutes when my husband is home. There is some magic going on
Monogamy for life! I just believe in true love and all that soul m...(stops myself) I know I know, I'm a hopeless romantic but I'm okay with whatever people are happy with 'Whatver floats your boat' I guess. But in such a relationship it will be quite hard to balance your love iykwim *takes out my measuring scale, let me see* 50% love for Mako, 25% love for Eren and 100% love for Levi , hmmm well that wasn't quite right...hmmm(⊙…⊙ )????* Whereas in a monogamous relationship you can give all of your love to only one person. That's just the way I perceive but I'm not against any type of relationship or anything I just prefer monogamy that's all and like I said before whatever makes you happy or 'floats your boat' (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
Are you dating someone now? Have you talked with your partner about this?
As long as there's a clear set of rules that everyone agrees on, I'd have no issue with it.
I don't have anything agaisnt it, but i'm not the right person for a poly-amorous relationship. I can be very jealous if it's someone I really am attached to.
I get jealously easily so I couldn't do it.
*jealous
That is very cute. I hope to have a comforting relationship like that one day. Congratulations, however long you've been married!
I can see how balance in such a relationship would be difficult. And I tend to have an inferiority complex, so that wouldn't help me much... But I suppose it would be dependent, in this hypothetical situation, on how much love my partners would be willing to give me. There are people who feel unloved in monogamous relationships and people who feel showered with love in relationships with 7 other people. Strange, isn't it? I guess it's just circumstantial.
Oh, and I fully support your hopeless romanticism. The world would be better off with more romantics.
Ew, no. But you're free to love whoever you want, as long as it's not hurting anyone outside of the relationship.
Personally, I am not dating anyone right now. I was recently hanging out with my lady friend and her boyfriend, however, and she enjoys being inclusive of me. So she'll encourage both of us to do things like hold her hand and kiss her cheek at the same time and what not; she doesn't mean it beyond that, but it did remind me of some of the poly relationships I've heard people describe. So I just got curious.
Also, I agree. In every relationship, rules and boundaries are important; especially in relationships pertaining to more than one person. So that's a good standard to have.
Oddly enough, I get incredibly possessive of the people I'm attached to. I can see how that would be a problem, but I've never gave it much thought as to whether I'd get possessive if those who were involved were two people that I individually loved very much. I guess that's the sort of question that can only be answered by experience.
That's my motto for pretty much any relationship. It'd be nice if more people thought this way.
I have witnessed some relationships (monogamous) in which the people involved.... really should have just... taken a nap. And maybe reconsidered their life choices
not into it myself, don't care if anyone else does it.
Not a problem if everyone is okay with it. (Funny how I dislike threesomes in manga but am perfectly fine with polyamory irl lol)
Not personally. Relationship are works, and I don't find myself desire to invest one. My preferred state is one of being alone. Having more than one relationship means it will requires more of my time, effort and commitment. That's a lot of work than if I initially had one. I am not that selfless. So, no, it wouldn't work for me at all.
Then again, I wouldn't against anyone with polyamory.
I don't against it but personally, I find it's awkward. Maybe because i'm a jealous type so I don't want to be in relationship where my partner is in love with another person. But it depends tho, as long as everyone is alright with it then it's okay.
Are there any good shoujo mangas out there in which the protagonists have really good compatibility? Like the kind of couple you see and think "They were made for each other." I don't usually read shoujo, but I'm interested just to take a peek.
Oh, if there are any yaoi/shonen ai mangas with the same premise... Don't hesitate to recommend.
Lovely Complex immediately comes to mind, then Kimi ni todoke, then denkgeki daisy, and then Beast Master. All shoujo manga
I really like Koukou Debut, in the first chapter you may think they have nothing in common, but then comes the others chapters and you see that they really care about each other and I just love a lot this manga.
Aoharaido is cool in the beggining, but then appear other girl (like many shoujo) and gets kinda sucks, because you can see the love between the main couple.
Oh! Also, one I'm reading right now is called Bambi to Dhole and it is amazing! But still ongoing so you would have to be patient and wait for updates...
Are they supposed to be sweet? I've never tasted a sweet one. They're always so bitter that I cringe. I can't tell if I just don't like the taste or if I've never actually had a sweet strawberry...
They are bittersweet...
they should be sweet, but some are bitter and bittersweet XD
Make sure you eat local ones... the ones I buy from the store are always bitter and they're the ones transported from California, but when I go to a strawberry patch and pick my own and they'll taste 10x better! There are also different variations, personally, I love Hood strawberries - they're so sweet and soft
If you get fresh picked strawberries or ones from a local farmer, they are small and very sweet. Chain store berries are usually picked green, force ripened and shipped long distances ... they lose their flavor.
lol, they're supposed to be sweet. you must have been eating the wrong ones.
ripe ones taste sweet with a bit of sourness.
Strawberry season is spring and early summer, for peak ripeness. Where I live there is a strawberry festival every year, usually in May!
I want to download subtitle-less HD videos for some amvs that I plan on working on, but I can't find a good place to do it. I've tried torrents but they're coming out very low quality for some reason. Does anyone have a better solution?
Torrents are the best thing tho. Look up nyaa(.)si. It's a website full of HD anime. If you want raw footage ohys raws and leopard raws are good groups. Stick with mp4 files. ^-^
I'm not sure if it will work with your editing software but I've seen some people just zoom in slightly until the subtitles can't be seen anymore.
Thank you! I tried leopard raws and their files are working very well with my computer. For some reason, the files I downloaded from other websites weren't functioning properly. But now everything is just peachy.
I would definitely do that, but for the particular show I'm using, the subtitles (for some reason) seem to cover a bit too much of the video than I am comfortable with. This trick definitely works on some shows, though, so I'll keep that in mind when I don't want to go through the trouble of tracking down a torrent.
Random appreciation @ the chillest mangago users. I'm not good at remembering names, but thanks to everyone who's ever helped me find a manga and recommended great stuff! You're wonderful little beans and you should be proud.
P.S. Just keep spreading positivity, and the nastiness going around will eventually die off.
Imma funny bean ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~
I love your post. * ﾟ･✿ヾ(´▽｀✿)ゝ