... Topping from the bottom? Now, this has just become even more interesting! Let's see how their relationship develops :).
...But it totally went to pieces after the gangrape. Before it had its flow, the inner logic, the development was well crafted, the characters well designed but now it's just all over the place. I lost them when they started living together. It's like both of them just lost it. Maybe it's the trauma but if the author wanted to show how they both suffered, I think the execution leaves much to be desired. And then, all of the sudden, BANG! They both want to go extreme. It just feels out of the place and contradicts the whole building of the story so far. At first I thought well: finally a good bdsm story. And yes, it's not easy with sadists and masochists, sm can indeed be a can of worms. But now, I don't know what to think anymore, except that the story was just... bombed. Too bad.
...It's rare to see an sm bdsm relationship depicted as well as in this webtoon. I see that a lot of people are not happy with the ending. I can't say the ending is bad but it does reflect, imo, a strange choice of the author. To end it with a trauma... So, here's my 5 cents. Trauma changes everything and regression is a very usual consequence. We've seen that the trauma of separation and loss hit the D so hard that he went into derealisation. And then, he spiralled down into smth toxic, as the relationship itself. D went into the desire to really hurt and s went into self harm. Btw, I don't think that D screaming about s being his possession and not allowing him to harm himself is particularlly strange or rare. I have met quite a few Dom(me)s in my life and I am yet to meet one who is not possessive about the sub they love. Also, in every relationship, bdsm or not, breaking off things without a proper conversation is hell and breaks people. And with Ds, there's always an issue of control. So, at the same moment, the top lost his loved one and all the control, his reality broke totally, only to realise that the bottom was (probably) going to end up killed. And that's one hell of a trauma. The way it was depicted here could give you a nice feel as to who is the person that ultimately has the power in the relationship.
I am not trying to say that the top was right to do the things that he did, he was not, he spiralled mentally and that's what trauma does to you. But it hit hard the sub as well. If falling into psychological (or moral) sadism is what happened to the top, regression into moral masochism is what I believe happened to the bottom. People who enjoy masochistic play do not enjoy self harm. No one enjoys self harm (and this comes from someone who used to self harm in their youth). It's a response to trauma, a coping mechanism.
So, at the end of the day, I think I can understand why the author depicted their relationship in the end as they did, I just can't fathom why did they chose to end the webtoon there. People say that the side stories would be even worse. We'll see. If that's true, what I will conclude for myself is that this story was not finished at the end. Yup, therapy would be needed but that is really a strange choice for an ending. Makes me wonder if the aithor lost their ideas or had to rush for some reason, or really wanted an anti climitic ending. If the latter is true, welp, it's one of a hell of an ruined orgasm for the readers.
... Drop this soon. So much potential for eroticism wasted due to safe, cliche choises that lean towards mainstream porn. Too bad...
And I'm glad that it's slowly reaching its closure. It's actually done rather well. I like both the male and the female lead. The ML is a breath of fresh breeze in the sea of inauthentic chaebol leads, and the FL lead is realistic and frank. I can't wait to see the end. But two things are really bothering me: translation, which is eeally difficult to follow and... My Gods, the lack of nipples. Tbh, the latter really irks me. Since when are nipples something that should be censored and not drawn?? Come on, we're mamals, the breast is primarily a feeding organ. Since when are nipples shameful? Maybe we should censor the majority of history of art (yeah, screw you Leonardo, Michaelangelo, Rafaelo, you perverts!) and all the mothers breasfeeding their babies? My gods, that is BULLSHIT.
I'm praising the Gods for this gem!! Such a good psychological drama, thriller...
I just hope that the kid brother will live and stay safe until the end of the story...
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Three and a half years, as serious as it could be. LDR can function well but not indefinetely and it does not survive serious life crises.
Did you forget when Ian asked Jo what else would he sacrifice for him and Jo said "everything". It's the same thing now. TJ will not have the guts to give it all up for Ian. If he could he would have done it long time ago.
... Nowdays, it's just: Oh my, he's gotta elephant di.ck, how that's gonna fit in me... Oh, you're clenching so hard... :/
I feel nostalgic for a good story, beautiful art, some emotion and a no penis fetish.