I just wanna let this out. I'm sorry for the scuffness. I'm really embarassed about sharing this but I just want people like me to realize there is still hope for us.
I've been severely depressed since the COVID started till now. I cut off contact with my friend group, I messed up my grades, and has been always inside in our room with no one but me and my family with no life skills. I tried to changed things but it's so so hard to get out. I mentally broke down when I realized what I'd been doing with my life and how much I disappointed my parents. I was contemplating to end my life but I was too scared to commit and the guilt for leaving my parents behind.
I've been crying so hard that my stomachs churning and feels like I wanna puke because of the negative thoughts inside my head.
My parents did their best to help me and support me. So when they heard me crying, they immediately get to me hugged and assured me and talked to me about my problems. It was too much for me so I decided to just let it out and talked to them. And y'know what that actually helps me though it's not like it miraculously erased any negatives things in my head but it just made me realize how much they loved me and how much they want me to be the best of me and they're here for me.
After that my head just cleared up and I can think clearly for a bit how to get out of this loop.
I decided to go outside on my own bit by bit with the help of my mother.
Also want to try this routine
https://youtu.be/Y9A5wuTtblw?si=f3LtGHTjKsl4PMtc to help me.
Idk y'all but pls pray for us who's struggling. Rn I really wanna let myself go and be free. Thank you.
want to do i cant study for fuck's sake
