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Glad that a lot of people are enjoying this but I just got more and more confused and didn't like it till the end even though knowing the tags... For those who are trying to read for 1st time,
I would say if ch.1 isn't your taste, pass it***
Cause I didn't do so and I regretted...
I don't know but I feel disgusted more and more, the longer the chapters get.The uke, he can't be honest and at the same time he still wants affection. The seme seems to be still chasing him for a whole lot more chapters and I don't see any improvement, even if you say it is close to reality, I still doubt a person can still be as shameless as the uke, well no hate but sanity still speaks louder and that uke's heart must have been infarcted for some reason, bitch I regretted I read this shxt , Lon Laut Pr P Kwr
Yashiro was repeatedly r*ped as a CHILD. Trauma tends to do stuff to you, and in his case he feels like he is completely worthless- like cattle waiting to be slaughtered. There are so many minute hints to this during this entire series. Trauma doesn't just magically disappear! Doumeki is literally the first person whose shown Yashiro normal, romantic love. The first time they did it Yashiro even had a flashback to his first time getting r*ped and tied up by his stepfather and he cried!!
In Yashiro's mind, he is not worthy of love. It is so deeply engraved into him.
Yep you are right and the one insane here must be me... I have seen people who have same trauma of rape, but they never destroy themselves though some tried to take their lives. So I got a head of myself and thought he was so stupid... But my pov is kinda smth huh
Anyways, thanks for your explanation again
Prob is, that's likely not the only trauma. the act itself. That shit's got context. and other .. comorbidities. I'm a survivor. also a guy. u can never predict how trauma reorganizes u. Esp the undealt w shit. I thought i was getting better and handling my business, being highly functional etc, until it all came out sideways and I legit woke up mid imploding & blowing up my life. Everyone's different. As are their circumstances
First,I must say you are Brilliant.Well you're strong enough to survive and I respect all who can mend themselves after suffering such a thing, my comment here is only ABT the fictional character and I don't intend to include reality to it, I just wanna enjoy since it is a manga and then the reality of the plot hit me so bad...damn
By the way, not all the things are blown up, more opportunities are yet to come since you are strong!
Wishing you the best, man. And you are so right about trauma. Mine is medical, dealing with chronic illness. I've gone a few years being okay mentally, but now I just... don't wanna see the future.
Let's hope for a better tomorrow for us both.