18, Japanese, Male, Gay, ( City ) Kurashiki, ( Job ) I work as a Chef at kurashiki Ramen Masuya.
A lot of things, but the first thing that comes to mind is grown ups (which they all are since I don't read shota lol) who both look and act like ignorant, stupid children. And I am not talking about some 16 year old looking 20-something guy (I ain't in no position to speak, I am one myself), but when the uke (usually) is a grown man, but he looks......
Flashback to 3 years ago, I meet a girl (I'm a girl too, fyi) who ticks off everything on my friend criteria. I'm fresh off the plane from New Zealand, and a young and questioning 14 year old. Fast forward a year later, the two of us are basically spamming each other with messages on Facebook, and occasionally we are up at 3am - me helping her with......
I was an absolute idiot as a preteen and got caught with yaoi multiple times, but for some reason still let me keep the yaoi I bought lol. She got pissy when she first found it before handing it back to me. Another time she saw some DRRR!! doujinshis I bought and when my dad asked what it was she laughed and told him it was rape porn. I still have ......
I've only ever had crushes on guys, ever since grade school. Just about a year or so ago I was still dating a guy in my class. But now I've found myself having the same kinds of feelings for a friend in my clique. I've been observing to see whether I'm just confused or influenced by social media or manga, but mind you, I don't even read yuri and shojo ai. But that girl is very kind and sweet to me and I think I've probably had a crush on her. I'm at a loss of what to do. I talked about this with another friend in my clique (I didn't tell her specifically who my crush is) and she advised me to continue talking normally instead of putting some distance. Normally I'd identify myself as straight, but I'm pretty open-minded about sexuality so I wouldn't find this strange. I just don't know how I should act around her. :((((( I don't want to ruin/change our friendship but at the same time being so close to her every single day is bad for my heart. What should I do? And should I talk about this with other close friends or should I just keep this to myself? My parents are very old-fashioned so there's no way I'm gonna tell them. I can probably endure till graduation and get over her (the only solution I can think of) :(((((
Yaoi readers: who reads yaoi?