Oh my god this was so good until Hawaii happened. What the fuck...I'm just speechless at how tasteless it got after -that- scene. I mean their interactions were already violent, but those last chapters...I just felt so disgusted and so sorry for the mc, it makes me sick how he just accepts that. I guess it's interesting and a great story if I think of it as a psychological horror bl because the emotions it made me feel are just disgust and pity
First love square??? where idgaf who the mc ends with, everyone even the mc, have the most nothingburger personality I've ever read, all they do is fuck and honestly that's better. At least the author has fun with her story and didn't pretend to create a complex plot, unlike miss 'here damn' doyak fuck doyak she's gonna get my lashings even here FUCKKK YEWW
I bet the grandma dies next chapter or some shit like that. HONESTLY I would love to see him losing in order to have Dan. You can't have both your victory and Dan, bc you put him through so much suffering just to win, it would be just poetic for him to give up his title in order to be with Dan, and also that's how Dan would realize that he's not a tool or a need but that he's actually loved









Why is everyone overreacting, it's not that serious. It's just an intrusive thought which he immediately regretted. It is very realistic, people have terrible thoughts or feelings, things you can't control. What matters are your actions, whether you materialize those thoughts or if you just ignore them bc at the end of the day, they're just that, thoughts that are not hurting no one because they're in your head
People often confuse intrusive thoughts with impulsive thinking. Intrusive thoughts are when you are suddenly thinking the worst things. Then you immediately are disgusted and uncomfortable by that sudden thought. It can mess you up for awhile as you try to understand why the hell you thought that. When simply it’s something you don’t have control over especially when you are in your lowest place.