I guess nearly nobody understood Fuji here. His pain and guilt for losing a bast friend, his rage because of people wandering in the mountain, his remorse for not going there too, his will to atone his sins staying in the dark and in sadness all hid life. He obviously was a jerk to Kira, because he decided to do so, not because he is actually one. He called him slut because he wanted to hurt him, period. He tried to hurt him for chaps! How can you read mangas if you don't try to change your POW sometimes...
Because it gets super annoying how every backstory is I’m an asshole because I’m sad. This constant need to imply that someone’s trauma excuses their toxic behavior is seriously annoying and prevalent in yaoi especially. It can explain the behavior it shouldn’t excuse it. There’s no apologizing or even acknowledgment just the typical uke smooths things over by accommodating to being treated horribly.
Yes, this doesn't make any sense to me. How oblivious she is about sex, especially thinking is gross ..she is not a little teenager anymore, a non asexual person should have felt something with Frederick, considering how much affection was there. And now you tell me it was platonic with him? A simple teddy bear to cuddle? Really? I don't like this all "poor virging that doesn't know a thing and doesn't feel any sexual attraction" also because now he seems kinda like a groomer.
I really liked how the story started, and I didn't never understood why people were so mad about a cheating in a contractual marriage with no promises involved. It was a facade and it was ok for me that she, or he, had a real lover.
That scene when she said or thought it was gross was when she was younger, I think before she got married.