I genuinely love this manhwa so much. I've reread it multiple times already and somehow never get tired of it. Compared to a lot of manhwas, mangas, and manhuas I've read, it doesn't feel like it's made to revolve around smut or romance alone. It actually has a story that made me feel so many things at once—sadness, anger, sorrow, excitement, warmth, and those little butterflies whenever Jay and Yoohan are together. Yoohan's journey especially stayed with me because his revenge slowly became more than just revenge. Along the way, he met people, formed bonds, and learned things about life that he never expected to. Like he said—maybe he was changing.
I think that's what makes Payback so special to me. A scene there reminded me a line from TGCF said by Xie Lian, "If you don'tknow the meaning to your life, then make me that meaning and use me as the reason to live". The idea of someone becoming a reason to keep going—not necessarily by saving you, but simply by making life feel worth staying for. Even the movie Yoohan acted in stuck with me, especially the scene where the girl wondered if she could have been the reason he stayed. It made me think about how we can never truly know how much our presence means to someone else. And thats probably how Yoohan felt with Jay, becoming his reason. I enjoyed Payback a lot and I'm still sad that it's over. It made me feel deeply, and even after multiple rereads, it still manages to leave something behind.
Completely agree. A lot of bl focuses on smut or sex but i enjoy ones like payback with a very dimensional backstory / plot. especially as a suicidal person myself who has been for a while, still is, and probably will be forever, this story really interprets it well. When somebody becomes the reason for another person to keep living, they dont change the persons mindset, morals, etc. but make life more enjoyable. It really does feel nice to have somebody by your side. And plus, its the little things like being able to chat with someone or even share laughter.
This is a really well written story that resonates with me forever. Its a very realistic plot that is somewhat more common in real life than most people probably think. I love payback so much
I genuinely love this manhwa so much. I've reread it multiple times already and somehow never get tired of it. Compared to a lot of manhwas, mangas, and manhuas I've read, it doesn't feel like it's made to revolve around smut or romance alone. It actually has a story that made me feel so many things at once—sadness, anger, sorrow, excitement, warmth, and those little butterflies whenever Jay and Yoohan are together. Yoohan's journey especially stayed with me because his revenge slowly became more than just revenge. Along the way, he met people, formed bonds, and learned things about life that he never expected to. Like he said—maybe he was changing.
I think that's what makes Payback so special to me. A scene there reminded me a line from TGCF said by Xie Lian, "If you don'tknow the meaning to your life, then make me that meaning and use me as the reason to live". The idea of someone becoming a reason to keep going—not necessarily by saving you, but simply by making life feel worth staying for. Even the movie Yoohan acted in stuck with me, especially the scene where the girl wondered if she could have been the reason he stayed. It made me think about how we can never truly know how much our presence means to someone else. And thats probably how Yoohan felt with Jay, becoming his reason. I enjoyed Payback a lot and I'm still sad that it's over. It made me feel deeply, and even after multiple rereads, it still manages to leave something behind.
Completely agree. A lot of bl focuses on smut or sex but i enjoy ones like payback with a very dimensional backstory / plot. especially as a suicidal person myself who has been for a while, still is, and probably will be forever, this story really interprets it well. When somebody becomes the reason for another person to keep living, they dont change the persons mindset, morals, etc. but make life more enjoyable. It really does feel nice to have somebody by your side. And plus, its the little things like being able to chat with someone or even share laughter.
This is a really well written story that resonates with me forever. Its a very realistic plot that is somewhat more common in real life than most people probably think. I love payback so much