Kazuhas beloved maple leaf's Questions (2)

So I recently came back to the site after months of being busy and my bookmarked/saved mangas/manhwas/manhuas as reading are all gone and I've been trying to look for half of it,,,,

This specific one is what I'm looking for most though it's danmei I think but has very suggestive drawings on some ,,,, the top is crazy obsessive and the bottom is a stupid himbo,,,,,, all I can remember is that the top has white long hair and wears contact lenses because he's blind apparently and the bottom used to have a good life but dad died and is now living with his mum, friend, and sister and is part of a propaganda club in his college ,,

This is like super random but I want to know if there's anyone else who experienced this too so I won't feel like I went insane.....

So not too long ago, I had a dream where I was in a happy and healthy relationship and I was spending everyday with them through chats and dates. This went on for so long that we eventually celebrated our 8th year anniversary and suddenly I woke up and has this nagging feeling to open my phone and chat my lover and in a sleep-induced rush, I went to grab my phone and went through my recent contacts when I paused and thought to myself: "I have a lover? When my last relationship was 3 years ago and haven't been dating ever since? And the recent contacts I have are my friends and family? Who is this lover????" That's when I finally woke up and broke into tears because what the hell do you mean I'm not in a loving relationship of 8 years and it was all just a dream?

Have you guys like... When through this too???? Like genuinely I keep going back and forth between "dreams have meanings" and "I'm hallucinating" ... I know I should've went to reddit but I'm genuinely tweaking while reading my favourite manhwa so I figured why not here lols.