Remember when Sohan said after he paid all his dad's debts that he suddenly lost his purpose in life? Then Siwah came aling with a mission to find his dad and him helping gave him another purpose. Then after reuniting with his dad and learning that Siwah's dad is dead made him lost again. Then when his dad wants him to help him through his money to rebuild their family brought him to a new purpose.
This poor guy holding on dearly to anything that will give him purpose bec he always felt being an excess baggage to someone else's life (his dad and mum's) and this will give him a feeling of being needed by someone.
That's the reason why I think Sohan isnt positive about Siwah taking him bec he is thinking he dont need him anymore for anything. Ofc if Siwah knows he needs him by side bec he loves him that would probably change everything but he doesnt. This is so sad.
Im really holding on to this because Im waiting patiently for the guideverse AU (chapter 73-90) I dont understand korean but it is the best AU side story for me imo that it could be a separate story.
a simple explanation is it is a trope with an esper and a guide. One character has magical powers (esper), but the con is to maintain their magical powers and sanity, they need to receive "guiding" (from the guide) which most of the time the form is intimate physical contact. There's more into this I think but this is just the basics coz I dont normally read this kind of trope.
you can search for guideverse tag here or maybe others will comment guideverse recos coz like I said i dont normally read it. It just so happen that the guideverse side story AU is really good!
So for those who are confused:
Charlie - MC(uke)
- Rabbit with earrings, short ears
- Simon/Sim's uncle
- got assaulted at the bar, helped by Zachary
Zachary/Zach ML(seme)
- Polar bear with dirty white hair
- Simon/Sim's schoolmate in university
- "helped Charlie" when he was assaulted in the bar where he worked as a bartender
Simon/Sim - Pink hair (Side couple, seme)
- Rabbit with longer ears, taller
- Charlie's nephew
- Lancey's bf
- Emmett and Zachary's schoolmate
Lancey (Side couple, uke)
- Fox, blonde
- Simon/Sim's BF
- Looks like a player but in reality he's shy
- Sammy's brother
- Charlie's new workmate/boss? (chief editor)
Raymond
- Tiger, red hair
- Charlie's bf onset the story
- Sammy, and Emmett's friend (Sammy is Lance/Lancey's brother)
- He was mad bec Charlie was ignoring his texts, he didn't know what happened to Charlie at the bar and now he's still clueless and this time jealous of Zachary bec he doesn't know shit.
Channing - (3rd ML? seme)
- Buffalo, horns and purple hair
- Charlie's bestfriend
- unrequited love for Charlie
- When Charlie found out that he has a long time unrequited love for him, Charlie got anxious and confused that's the reason why he got drunk and got himself in the bar where he was assaulted.
Sammy (uke side couple) - fox blonde
- Lancey's Brother
Emmett (side couple seme)
- Dog/wolf (?) Purple hair- Sammy's BF- friends with Raymond- Simon/Sim's schoolmate