reading this was agonizing.. because i was once in her position (for the nth time). and we had the same reaction and first thought... it felt so filthy that i dont want the person i like seeing me like that...the first thought she had was that Varkas saw her.
it was so filthy and degrading that until now i feel guilty because i still have this thought that i dont deserve someone because i am dirty already. and it is not fair for my future partner to be with someone like that.
Well, that is indeed a very relatable story, so I guess it will trigger many memories that shouldn't be there... I am broken to read somebody with those memories.
You are not dirty, filthy, etc. That's, sometimes, a very religious way of saying things, or traditional way.
I have received those words as well. My point is, filthy is a cloth, not a person. A person is painted with different colours until they grow up, sometimes not the best matching colours, but that's how life treats us.
My many hugs to you, and let that guilty go very far away from you, because I think behind those feelings there is a kind soul trying to fly very high on the sky and be free.
i just like the calm serene atmosphere here.. the chapter really do clarified all the false allegations the other fandom has with dowha lol. about the "uncomfy" shit they be telling. suae now mentioned she is comfy and had fun times. i dont really think she is leading him on too, because dowha keeps knocking on her door. and if dowha gets heartbroke , thats on him, and i think he already knows how to deal with that later on. he just needed the chance to create his opportunity now, and if suae decided again not to choose him, he'll take it healthily and decide accordingly just like in the past. but now that suae didn't do anything like that yet, he'll continue to do anything he can obviously.








am i reading gay shit?.......CUZ I DIG IT EVERY TIME. every sayoung x J panel screams GAE
Yup this is bl
This is a sign you should start reading the genre before you start chapter 1