u know what i will just pretend that they didnt finish it because if they do the people inside the story will have to loop and restart the story once again. making it open ended means their storg inside will continue living. *i said as i was getti g dragged towards an asylum*
ps. i NEVER liked the step siblings to lovers trope (i had trauma with 'beware of brothers' LOL) but this one seems likable....
reading this was agonizing.. because i was once in her position (for the nth time). and we had the same reaction and first thought... it felt so filthy that i dont want the person i like seeing me like that...the first thought she had was that Varkas saw her.
it was so filthy and degrading that until now i feel guilty because i still have this thought that i dont deserve someone because i am dirty already. and it is not fair for my future partner to be with someone like that.
Well, that is indeed a very relatable story, so I guess it will trigger many memories that shouldn't be there... I am broken to read somebody with those memories.
You are not dirty, filthy, etc. That's, sometimes, a very religious way of saying things, or traditional way.
I have received those words as well. My point is, filthy is a cloth, not a person. A person is painted with different colours until they grow up, sometimes not the best matching colours, but that's how life treats us.
My many hugs to you, and let that guilty go very far away from you, because I think behind those feelings there is a kind soul trying to fly very high on the sky and be free.








these episodes clarified a lot.
eunhyuk left selfishly. he even thought suae was all happy while he was miserable alone.
then suae said all the things the dowha fans kept saying. eun left her while staying in contact with raim. (in a special relationship) knowing what raim did to her and him. Guys,,, come on...he never even realized he hurt suae all those years.. he just realized it after hearing it from her. how self-centered can you be? if u cant, just for a but think, did i hurt the person i love after i abruptly left? kina thing BUT WATEVER.
raim's cut was also nostalgic. because even though she is utterly selfish, she still thinks of suae as her sister.
dowha's (as a dowha girly) current situation was both saddening but well he should have anticipated that already (me wait for his backstory cuz eun had his yet again LMAAAO)
conclusion? all of them are still living in the past. eun kept imagining suae's 18yo image...dowha bought his place from the past (but with a new out of place bed LOL, so that might be a symbolism)
haha my delulu ass was like ooommfff now dowha is out of ent industry he can pursue freely (Act at ur own risk pls i dun wanna cry if u get hurt again but well...the heart wants what it wants i guess???)