I want them together because I'm selfish enough to wish that garam can just suck it up. That makes me a shitty person who just wants to see the happy side of everything while wishing one individual will suffer for my wants but that's just me. I feel like this story will fuck up my mind because i really like the prof and i want him to be happy but that happiness will also cost someone their happiness. Thats rlly fucked.
my first love was like this - incredibly shitty person who knew it and didn't change. In fact knowing someone loved and suffered for them made them worse. I can tell you to this day irl I could never really love anyone else again without deep wariness again, and lowkey that immersion makes me hate heejae for garam (I like them as individuals tho)








This whole story is just teasing and edging me to my very core.