Just finished reading a beautiful short story here to recommend spending 30 minutes of your time on this beautifully written gem:
"The Phoenix Once Roamed"
https://www.novelupdates.com/series/the-phoenix-once-roamed/
The novel is just 7 parts and relatively short. The summary is a bit misleading since it's not dementia, but the MC is ill w...... 2 reply
Spiritual/occult items (i buy incense the most), skincare, makeup and art supplies (i havent in awhile though), alcohol, hygiene shit; going to workshops, events (like art markets, conventions, group events) and seminars.
Food is number 1 though.
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I kind of agree with you because I do remember writing this long essay about why I appreciated this morally grey character or their depth (the story is not that good ngl) and the person who replied on mgg was like " no he's fucking absolute bad yada yada he did this" which was...really fucking disappointing ngl. But the flags term is not that impo...... reply
1. That I care
2. That the people who hurt / betrayed / abused me could still hold a grip in me--the privilege of my own emotions or that I can still feel love for them
3. That maybe i don't entirely/truly love/accept myself as i try / claim me to be. Like yeah i do but i don't try hard enough.
Ngl I tried really hard to think of something, since ...... 1 reply
I'm a layman at this but I have encountered this theory roughly before though i don't know about this topic much. I agree with it not because the author isn't important or relevant to understanding a text but because author's intentions ≠ meaning. The part about how "it belongs entirely to the reader" to me is because everyone will interpret a te...... reply
1. I like that I'm fucking weird. This isn't like a pick me / I'm special thing. I think I find myself silly and weird and really funny to myself. I appear like the most boring, serious mf ever (people think I'm a grandma or a sage to friends, a loser/annoyance to family), but I know it--I'm just weird to myself with a flower growing out of my head...... reply
Yesterday I had a nightmare. It felt like a film where I'm observing this girl devour the person beside them on the bed. I can't quite recall if it was a woman or a man. The girl is similar to a vampire or a version of it. These creatures are perfectly normal and live regular lives in society before they awaken. The conditions for them to awaken is to eat another person. It's like a sudden initiation of maturity. They might be ignorant or might be slightly/subconsciously aware that they're not human before it happens. The person they eat ends up morphing into a bat-like face, just like the face of the girl morphing into one in the process. The body corrodes and crumbles as they eat it, like it's sucking the vitality out of it. While i didn't see it in the dream, i just know that the corpse might turn into the same kind or just die in that state. The dream ends with the girl looking at me/spotting me. Anyway it was very unlike me to have that dream and I haven't had a horror one in a while; was also semi-lucid. Wasn't as terrifying of an experience but i do think it's kinda cool? As a manga premise or something. I've had some other dreams with cool plotlines too but share your cool dreams please
This thought popped up a few days ago, but we conventionally relate age and maturity in direct proportion to time and experience. We experience a linear progression to age with time (even though, age, technically, should be a more physically related idea) and much of our thoughts about it is the same way. Maturity is a more complicated metric in that it shows through an assessed growth from overall and cumulative experience -- both quantitative and qualitative. Other factors like culture, relationships, environment, age, physical, social and mental development are also part of that. Age and Maturity are closely related in that sense.
Reinncarnation basically subverts the linear association to the experience of age and maturity. In a lot *and i mean a fk ton cough* of works, the MC will count their lives lived in their 2nd life as their "actual" age. Say you died 20 years old before you reincarnated, so the following 20 years you lived after that is considered additive to your actual, mental maturity, age or experience (40 years old). It's normal to agree to that sentiment, but I've been thinking that that might not actually be a fair assessment. Living an environment with cultural and relational interactions unique to age 0-20 and repeating that is vastly different from living one life until you're 40. You have never experienced the cumulative linear progression of one who has lived 40 years--at least, you have never reached the maturity of someone's who's 40. Perhaps you can apply that to our experience with age (since we experience time as linear), but maturity would be very different.
What are your thoughts on this? Would you actually consider a reincarnated person's age and maturity as additive to their previous life?
