heehoo's Things

!!!The question is at the bottom if you dont wanna read through the whole thing!!!

So about two years ago, I started to feel strange feelings towards my best friend. Best friend switched schools, and the feelings started to die down a little. After maybe a year, I started noticing those feelings. I cryed myself to sleep each and every night, feeling like there is something very wrong with me. I started to feel atracted to my female classmates, but I just brushed it off as admiration. But I quickly found out that that was garbage, because I often found myself daydreaming about having a girlfriend that would love me and stuff. At that point I couldnt hold it in myself anymore. I decided to come out to a friend of mine that I truly trust. She was extreamly supportive and later turned out to me pan! The next day, she gave me rainbow sour gummy worms, which is my favourite candy! I came out to my other friend that I thaught I could trust, but turns out she is an extreamly unsupportive female dog. She literally thinks that I am faking this for attention or something. About two months later of coming out to my dear friend I felt the need to come out to my mom but at the same time I didnt want to because I felt scared that my mom, a person that I see as a best friend, would suddenly turn against me. I ran up to her and told her that I wanna tell her something important. After that Nothing came out of my mouth. I decided that Id rather text her. After I texted her I imidiatly ran into the shower and had a massive anxiety attack. I started to hyperventilate to the point I thaught I was gonna pass out. Tears started to roll down my face. It was one of the most painful and scariest moments of my life. After an hour my mom came to my room an spoke with me. I cryed. I cryed a lot. My mom supported me even though I saw in her eyes that she wasnt a fan of it. Its not like she is homophobic or anything. She was and still is extreamly worried for me. Then I realized that I have to come out to my extreamly homophobic father.

Finally for my question. Any tips on coming out to a homophobic dad without him flipping out and disowning me? I know that he will find out. But I want to tell him myself rather than him accidentally finding out by himself. But the thing is, I dont know how.. Woow I wonder if life stories are allowed lol(￣∇￣"). Anyways if you read through the whole thing, then thank you. I hope I will recieve any answers to my question(๑•ㅂ•)و✧