im really glad i read this. it gives me hope, that yes i can live my truth even in a homophobic country. there will always be problems and hate but there will always be people to take my side, too. id honestly fallen into a really depressive state for the past couple years and ive been a shut in for that time, but ive been making plans as to how i could leave for months, and now ive finally found something to leave the house for.
but i do feel very scared at the thought of random people finding about me, just like tasuku was so scared about being "found out". its terrifying, but knowing that there are others like me somewhere, and theres people who understand me, makes the fear go away a little. i also forgot about the support i DO still have, i have a friend who accepts me for who i am, im grateful to have her, i thought she would turn on me too. but she hasnt, for many years now. and if she exists, there will be others like her.
lmao maybe its incredibly pathetic to feel like this and yap so much over a manga, but this is just one of those mangas that really makes you feel and reflect on your own life.
gotta read this now
the art is beautiful but its so rapey so its a waste, it did live up to the name though, tons of prostate stuff, but there was just so much rape i regret staying up till 4 am to read this T_T
mc just kept getting raped by different dudes and finally falls for the prostate doctor who was the one who raped him, let other doctors play with his prostate, kidnapped him, raped him again and mc still fell for him
at least they dont get together in the end and mc manages to become a big idol but theres a season 3 so.. they probably will end up together anyway..











ive never seen a manga capture the lesbian experience (at least mine) this closely. it always hurts to realize that the woman you love just wont see you that way, ever. and even if you part ways with her, life continues to go on. you may never see her again, you can hate her, while still loving her, and you'll never really stop thinking about her and probably never forget her, but you still have to continue living as usual as if she didnt mean everything to you. it hurts, and often there is no one you can tell. there's no satisfying or happy ending at all. life just goes on.
also im pretty sure the hallucination of takatsuki lashing out at komura and telling her how gross she is and how she never loved her back was komura's own thoughts about her desire for takatsuki taking form. she knew takatsuki didnt love her back, so she thought that obviously takatsuki would be disgusted by her if she knew she was in love with her. that part was also so incredibly relatable like omg. im obsessed with this author now