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like damn i really get genuine happiness watching these fictional men fuck it's the best part of my day, how do i even explain that to an average joe
(and all my friends who go into bl at the same time as me "reformed" themselves and see it as their dark past)

maybeee tmi but im so curious on others thoughts/experiences and it's awks to ask people i know irl

a lot of stuff that i've been told only happens to guys im pretty sure i've experienced but just idk vagina version; post nut clarity, morning "horniness" (morning wood), random wetness (random boners). the only thing that seems genuinely just a guy thing is wet dreams because i cant imagine orgasming in my sleep idk how that physically happens without them waking up before.

i mean overall i know women get a really shit sex ed compared to guys, but some stuff that im pretty sure is more common regardless of gender has kind been dude-ified? like sometimes guys are talking about something penis-related but i lowkey relate.

i feel like I've read everything with a unique premise, can someone drop some reccs with a unique plot or pairing or dynamic? just anything different from a typical cliche like idk misunderstanding as the plot or cold ceo and his little omega or a love triangle between childhood friend and new love interest or like any other premise where you can guess the end after 10 chaps. i wanna engage my brain, and really not know how the story is gonna go and i feel like im in a drought.

(I'll also take non bl reccs as long as the plot is interesting, i love action/sci-fi/horror/transmigration/psychological etc. i just wanna read something good)

just curious cause everyone is saying it's survived many exposures and crashes and that its been around like forever. also is it older than the b site that's cooked now? it's lowkey giving fossil lmao.

guys im lying in bed and im supposed to be in class at sixth form, but i cant get up.

i cant lie im already retaking the year to try and lock in and improve my grades and the worst part is it's not going terribly even though im not trying (im doing better than the previous year) so i really can't find the motivation to put in effort. i know theres a ton of revision i oughta do to get the most out of my education but i cant bring myself to actually gaf so nothing is really very effective.

worst thing is my family are not well off, but not in an awful way that makes me desperate to wanna change our situation. so anyway I feel a sense of responsibility and pressure as the eldest to do something with my life but also i really just don't feel very inclined to work towards that personally? im just like deeping my life rn cause none of my like passions are passioning i feel so apathetic.

this happens fairly frequently, this time i figure it's cause my mum's left the country for a bit so she's not forcing me to do the things i need to. and normally id read/watch some peak media that would spark a zest for life in me but im genuinely struggling to find something i like that much plus that usually ends in me being tunnel vision obsessed with that thing until i neglect other things.

wait is this neurodivergence?