Coping With Ocd

i swear, people on social media are so fucking ableist, especially towards people with OCD. I'm not even mad at people who just don't know but are still genuinely willing to learn and be understanding. im mad at the people who actively villainize and shame us for having UNWANTED INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS

"Wait, wdym you have taboo OCD? OCD is ONLY when you love cleaning and being a perfectionist!" "Ew no, you're just a weirdo/freak." and the worst part? it's not just neurotypicals saying this, BUT ALSO OTHER NEURODIVERGENT PEOPLE. saw someone literally bullying an OCD sufferer, and when called out, they were like "heh, mind you, i'm neurodivergent too! i have a mood disorder and i don't use it as an excuse to be a bad person like you guys." LIKE ARE YOU SERIOUS??? ND on ND violence for what??? using your own diagnosis as a weapon to invalidate someone else's symptoms is so nasty. IT’S CALLED OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER FOR A REASON.
Seeing so much hate and ignorance DURING OCD AWARENESS MONTH TOO pisses me off so bad

I swear i'm ready to transfer all 26 of my OCD subtypes directly into these people. See how much you love the endless insanity spirals... do people even realize how agonizing intrusive thoughts are? the constant guilt, the endless reassurance-seeking that only backfires ("what if you're actually just a bad person?"), and the mental exhaustion of fighting your own mind 24/7. sometimes when i get hit by an ocd episode i couldn't even function for days, maybe weeks if it's really bad

People preach so much about 'mental health awareness', but the second someone has an actual disorder that makes them uncomfortable instead of their cute, quirky version, they treat them like freaks. this is why so many people suffer in silence until they can't take it anymore

I want to seek professional help to see whether or not I actually have OCD, but my parents, especially my mom (who is a psychiatrist ironically), won’t hear me out and refuse to let me see a doctor. Does anybody know how I could circumvent my parent’s refusal and get in touch with a doctor?

I would have some intrusive thoughts but those thoughts are the same thing and I would seriously get ticked off if it's not right I would also tap the faucet twice and touch the objects with my two hands like for example if I touch something with my left hand my right hand should touch it too and when I saw it once it should be twice and for example my mind would keep and reading stuff reversed like okay yako fine enif and last time I keep on chewing my cheeks