lil update of my life cause why not:
so i finally went to psychiatrist after keep self-sabotaging myself (everytime i plan to go i keep saying "I'll go tommorow" and never came at all). anydihway, my doctor said i have OCD, Mix Anxiety And Depressive Disorder. i mean i expected the OCD but not the depression one lol. i expected i only have 1 menta...... 6 reply
BARU JUGA SEPTEMBER SIALAN UDAH HABIS RATUSAN RIBU CUMA BUAT PO MERCHS FAKKK And the mail order postage to my address is insanely expensive... (i still ordered it anyway )
I'm literally still a high schooler using my allowance savings, but spending this much money still gives me huge anxiety even though it's my own saved money hhhhh 1 reply
idk if this a quirk, but i genuinely cant eat rice without soy sauce.... i can't eat tasteless rice. i mean technically i can but i will not enjoy it...
also my friends been told me A LOT that i eat too fast. they just sit and i already finish mine (they're the one who slow tho.... playing with phone and gossiping while eat) 1 reply
i reply because i can, and this just imo. i personally doesn't like incest manhwa manga myself so I'm just gonna ignore that kind of stuff. i mean what the point telling them "hey incest is bad", if someone already enjoy stuff they not even gonna listen to, they just gonna debate for the love of the game 1 reply
i swear people on TikTok have negative reading comprehension and love throwing heavy terms around like it's nothing. they literally water down words like "fetish", "homophobic", and even "pedo" just to hate on ships they don't like
I literally got attacked just because i didn't view the characters' relationship the same as their hc they straight up called a ship between two grown adults "pedophilic" and straight up called the shippers pedophiles just cause they hc their dynamic as siblings/mother and son. REMINDER THAT YOUR HC IS NOT CANON. Like... wdym a middle-aged man x immortal grown adult is pedophilia??? They could direct that same energy towards actual loli/shota ships, but NO, they choose to crash out over adult characters instead. tikTok fandom culture is so ass and everyone there just uses buzzwords without knowing what they actually mean. I'm so done
I FUCKING HATE THESE KINDS OF SHIPPERS IN THE FANDOM. So I was looking for edits/fanart of my favorite ship. just for context, my ship isn’t that popular because one of the characters is shipped with someone else in a WAY more popular ship
While I was reading the comments on the post, there’s this one shipper saying stuff like "My fyp betrayed me, I prefer [ship name] more." MF YOUR SHIP IS LITERALLY MORE POPULAR THAN MINE AND MINE BARELY HAS ANY CONTENT. JUST FUCKING SEARCH YOUR SHIP AND YOU'LL FIND THOUSANDS OF POSTS. ARE YOUR FINGERS TOO FAT TO TYPE IT IN THE SEARCH BAR OR WHAT
I swear, shippers of popular ships act like they're starving and niche, WHILE HERE I AM LITERALLY CREATING MY OWN FANART JUST TO FEED MYSELF. It’s also just generally annoying to mention other ships when the post itself is not about them, just go find your ship's content/community, holy shit
I feel so embarrassed lately, i honestly just want to jump straight to the weekend
It’s probably not that serious to other people, but i find it so awkward and embarrassing because in my class, I’m literally the ONLY one who keeps asking for toilet permission during lessons. For context, I’m currently dealing with a UTI, so I physically have to go to the bathroom pretty often. For example, I’d ask to go during Math class, and later on different lesson like physics, I have to stand up and ask for permission again.
It makes me feel full of anxiety and overthinking. Once, i tried to hold it in because i was way too scared and embarrassed to ask, the teacher was lecturing and the classroom was dead silent... but yeah, i learned my lesson because holding it in just makes it worse, i feel like i almost pee myself for holding it in for like 1 hour 20 minutes
Besides that one time, i always force myself to ask, but it feels so awkwardly painful every single time. i know the world doesn't revolve around me and everyone has their own stuff to handle, but i can't stop worrying if my classmates think I'm weird or if they're judging me for constantly leaving/ask for toilet
Tomorrow is my first day back to school and I am genuinely spiraling and overthinking this so bad. For context, i live in Indonesia. Unlike Western schools, every single Monday, schools here hold this mandatory morning assembly called "Upacara Senin". We have to stand in neat rows out in the school yard for basically two hours straight. no moving, no sitting down, just listening to long speeches...
and this is what im worried: I currently have a UTI, which means I need to pee every 30-60 minutes. On top of that, if i try to hold it in even for a little bit, my stomach instantly starts cramping up and my whole body gets so sore and achy. The physical pain makes holding it impossible, which is why i'm so terrified of being stuck in the middle of a ceremony.
im also shy, the thought of asking a teacher for permission to leave the lines gives me massive anxiety. to make matters so much worse, the student restrooms are located directly in front of the school yard. If i leave the assembly to go there, i will literally have to walk right in front of the entire school (Ther's alternative tho, the teacher's restroom is behind the rows, but I don't know if I'm allowed to use it).
I WANT TO KMS, I FEEL SO MISERABLE What should i even do? I talked to my mom about it, and she straight up suggested I wear an adult diaper, I don't want to wear diaper at my big age...
Should i just force myself to be brave and ask my teacher for permission to use the teacher restroom? Has anyone else survived a UTI at school? help
My dad and mom beat the shit outta me last night and all my body fucking hurts this morning yo I genuinely don't know how our relationship is going to be after this because I'm still so mad at them and I don't want to forgive them. But the thing is, I need to go to the hospital for a medical checkup next week, so I still need my dad to drive me there. ts going to be so incredibly awkward...
Has anyone else been in a similar situation? How do you guys deal with your parents after a huge fight like this...
