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Link on where you read 106?

desirescans or ridibook. u have to pay for either tho. desirescans better as it has an english translation

I’m legit nauseous & i want to cry after reading ch 105. I was on the fence about dropping after ch 104 b/c i wanted to see the MC get away. However after reading chapter 105- an entire chapter which shows more of the violent rape & practically implies the MC was enjoying it (b/c he got hard) I’m beyond done.

Can u spoil me about chapter 106?

ok spoiler for chapter 106 ahead:
After the r*pe, it seems some days have passed, absolutely no conversation or guilt after what happened. Jihwan instead is just smiling and giggling, zero guilt. Feels incredibly abrupt. Jihwan leaves for some work to another city or place and leaves Mr Jeong to supervise Sooyoung. Sooyoung acts a bit recklessly, refusing anxiety medication and ordering his own food instead of eating what Jihwan sends. He is also seemingly normal, playing video games, eating, making huge messes. But Mr Jeong notes that at night, he is crying to himself, completely heartbroken and resigned
It was a really uncomfortable chapter to read, the most depressing.

I understand! I think unfortunately Jihwan is irredeemable now and not even likeable... Before at least his clumsy confessions and attempts to buy gifts etc for Sooyoung were a little likeable. He said he couldn't bear a hear on his head getting hurt, would NEVER r*pe him and was nothing like Lim Gyujin, repeatedly says I'm not a monster or r*pist, gets angry when his arm is burnt by hot soup... But now he is ok with Sooyoung's broken arm, multiple bruises, and casually r*pes him because "oh well". Sooyoung feeling good was an unnecessary detail, I don't think the author is romanticising ts at all as (pls skip to the last sentence if you don't want chp 106 minor spoilers)


in chapter 106 Sooyoung is clinically depressed, crying at night and breaking the vase of flowers Jihwan gave him.


I am thinking of letting this story marinate :(( It's in a bad place rn.

Yea, I liked the psych thriller part of this & I’m still hooked on gig of the day, which is similar but i have to drop this now. The MC has/had this strong resilience about him, which i loved. If it had gone in the direction I thought it was going it wld have been such a good read. I may come back & read the last chapter once its done but i having a feeling I’ll just end up disappointed so I may just move on entirely.

I don't think it is implied he enjoyed it, at least by the author. That's just ML being a manipulative POS. I think the author has done a really great job of sprinkling how SA impacts survivors/victims and this is all happening within MCs internal monologue so it makes sense he's also confused and questioning his own behavior/reactions. Since before, there's been an implication that MC is having a normal reaction to traumatic sexual violence- from more sexual behavior like (to) him (excessive) masturbating and "enjoying"/getting aroused by the assault.

where do you read the raws?

desirescans

Is there any point at which Sooyoung gets his revenge, or at least escape???

The raws are only around 4 chapters ahead. The latest chapter is chapter 104. So far, NOPE. Like I said, things get a LOT worse. Which is sad because you'll see up to chapter 102, it seems like things are getting a bit better. But in 103-104 Jihwan does some of the worst things he has done in the entire story. It was hard to read. The only solace I have is that Sooyoung isn't like other dumb MCs and the author has made it clear Jihwan is mentally ill and not be rooted for. I don't see Stockholm Syndrome happening, I see a bittersweet ending where Jihwan isn't surviving.

Thanks for the reply even though it's making me big sad :((((

Chapter 103: ML had dinner and drinks with his dad, who spent the whole dinner blaming him for his mother’s death. Then in Chapter 104, ML came home drunk and frustrated, and it seems like anything involving his mother’s death is probably one of his biggest triggers.

MC was thirsty and happened to run into ML while he was drunk. ML demanded sex, but MC clearly didn’t want to. ML then gave MC some of his medication, which apparently contains tranquilizers, supposedly to relax him and make things less painful or uncomfortable. He kept mentioning that it would take only about 10–20 minutes for the medicine to kick in.

Then ML basically says that since MC is going to be stuck in his house forever and they’ll be having sex countless times anyway, he doesn’t see why he should keep holding himself back or being considerate.

I genuinely have no idea where the story is going. Either ML is eventually going to end up in jail or a psychiatric institution, or MC is seriously going to remain trapped there forever.

Please can you share the link to the raw

Can you please share link to the raw

go to desirescans.com. I did end up paying for the latest chapters though. They are translated into english non officially