This is soooo freaking good i love how they have this enemies to lovers relationship and its not over in like two chapters but you can still see it in there current relationship whith them being sassy to each other. I feel so sad seeing the internalised homophobia it makes me so sad to see him praying after kissing him :( . But its been a while since i have felt this excitement reading a bl. Insanly good.(づ ̄ ³ ̄)づ
I thought at first i was going to sob over this story bc i knew what was to come but jesus christ that man was horrible and i couldn't understand why the mc stayed so long in the first place before his chemo i understand in the name of love but he was borderline abusive. I want to feel sorry for the mc i do to a degree but idk maby i just didnt feel emotionally attached to these characters. I understand the argument that he loves him but i genuinely find that love pathetic to love someone while they abuse you and cheat on you i feel he guinly has no self respect for himself.. im free to hear others opinion. But dont get me wrong i think its sad im js saying im not moved by it, im not trying to come across as empathetic..
Ig what makes mc immovable was his attachment with the blissful memories he had with ml, I think that 14 years together is just their marriage - pretty sure they have been together much longer.considering ml was mc's first love and his world and Hey!! The past ml would hate this present mf ml. What i perceive is that,mc was trying not to hate him at his last moment as the adorable and cheerful ml from past was still engraved with him…this story is torture. I hope there was a continuation on this story with mc and the doc meeting in their next life









His some how a ho in ever verse ╮( ̄▽ ̄)╭