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I'm so upset that I had to finish this so I'm gonna rant a bit.
This was trauma porn and nothing else. I had to abandon this at chapter 67. I only forced myself to finish it today because I already wasted time reading 67 chapters and not getting any closure would have only added to the frustration.
The main problem for me here is I just cannot root for the main character. Every decision he's ever made completely made his life worse and he knows it. I feel no sympathy for him because he has no redeeming qualities. Feels like the writer made a list of the worst possible things you can put a character through and just decided to add all of them to the story instead of picking 2-3.
Imagine 13 years of zero growth. Imagine trusting every single evil person in this book but not the person who's been actually helping and supporting you. And then blaming that person for every tragedy. Yes, Seung-eon was no saint, but if your choices are all assholes anyway, you could've picked the least evil one. Only at the very end does he say he avoided him all this time so that he wouldn't be burdened. What a load of bs.
The events that led to the bad things that happened to Jinwook could have been avoided, and he had every opportunity to escape that hell but he actively chooses not to. Instead, he puts himself in even more dangerous situations.
If he didn't pull that "pay me 1.9 billion won and I'll be with you" crap and just paused and used his supposedly smart brain for two seconds, none of this would have happened. And even after the first 4-year time skip, when he just believed the freaking loan sharks about Seung-eon being responsible for his dad's death NO QUESTIONS ASKED, zero brain usage. And then he continues being friends with Hyung-seo even after he was warned about him and after Hyung-seo crossed his boundaries more than once. Still he wants to be friends with him.
With the way this character was written and his lack of critical thinking skills, it was a good thing he didn't become a lawyer. I would not trust this man to make any rational decision ever.