Damn, I love how Garam loves and pays attention to the professor. For him to be aware that he was involved to some extent just by listening to his way of speaking about the situation. BRAVOOOOO!! You’re a wife Garam, you know your man.
As someone said from the comments, now that his Gem has suffered the yelling and humiliation from someone else now it’s wrong. I don’t know how many years have passed since Heejae humiliate and yell to Garam, bc now it’s just praising and nagging to improve that maybe that’s why his hears are finally listening. I understand Heejae’s motives to show Compton’s true colors and his cult leader behavior after getting his babe yelled but man, those people were going to talk about him at some point without your involvement.
I hope Garam can tell the professor what a fucking hypocrite he has been, and to oblige him to do something nice for Compton.
Which in his discussion about him in previous chapters on how he couldn’t understand what was Jeffrey thinking makes their relationship more complicated. Jeffrey wanted to become the professor, the professor was annoyed by why he was trying to become a copycat of his sound… in a way I understand, we are unique but the way he wanted to bring Jeffrey’s own sound was definitely harsh and torturous. Still, in his own way professor had some sort of respect that disappeared once he moved to be a conductor. Kind of giving up in Heejae’s eyes. Could this be maybe the point of no return for Compton where he once again touches a piano? I hope so. (⊙…⊙ )
What more proof do we need to realize Heejae is human…? He was fucking Garam while playing the song he composed for him… c’mon.
But I completely understand that Garam is getting anxious after what Compton said… which I guess it’s pretty normal. I’ve not met any relationship that don’t “doubt” the love or the intensity of it. That’s why there are a lot of fucking memes of women saying: “would you love me if I were a couch?” We seek for reassurance, it doesn’t matter if we know we are loved we just want to hear it.
Anyway; professor wanting and going for round 2 at the shower ufff, I wish I could be a pianist haha
I think the point is that heejae needs to be human to *everyone*, not just garam.
In the perfect world everyone should be nice to everyone… guess what that doesn’t happen. Not in a story nor in reality. I understand what you mean, but there are people who decide to whom they want to be kind, according to their beliefs, opinions, or ideas they have towards the other person.
Many stories here are like that “the top” that isn’t kind to anyone but only his partner… well here’s the same.
Heejae is an asshole, but not because he’s a god, it’s because people have treated him like one, so here Garam using the same metaphor of him descending from heaven just for music doesn’t match with him fucking Garam while playing that’s what I meant.
┗( T﹏T )┛
It really breaks my heart when someone you love and loves you back doesn’t remember the wounds they caused.
The last chapter reminded me about parents. Heejae was complaining and judging Compton as if he was never that person. Kind of like parents, if you ever had to deal with an abusive parent (which sometimes I feel it was my case but then it wasn’t) and they change over time because X or Y things happened later on their lives and then they have this illusion of a great upbringing without thinking of the yelling and screaming they did… uff.
So the same thing here, you can try to understand why they behave like that (Heejae’s stubbornness and loneliness) but that doesn’t justify their behavior ever! It doesn’t matter that now they are angels with you… the past cannot be changed or erased, sometimes forgiven yes for some, but for others is just kind of I understand where are you coming from and yet you were an asshole abuser. Just like some people can still love their parents… same here.
It’s a decision, it’s your own views on how you approach and cope with that past, so I hope Garam finds the opportunity to say you know you did this, you did this to me and to others… and continue with their lives but at the end we need to make people accountable.
Heejae, I love your growth but we don’t forget. Period hahahaha
Still what an amazing sex car scene like damn daddy, keep eating me!
It’s interesting that for Compton, the way Heejae loves Garam isn’t “enough”. He’s just saying he loves you bc of your music and that’s probably true. He was interested in him because of his sound and when he couldn’t deliver it (student years) he was fed up and willing to cast him aside so yes.
But is it wrong tho? That professor loved Garam bc of his sound, I mean for them I guess it’s another layer of showing yourself as a being… just like people can fall at first sight by looks or ways of speaking… it’s not like you love the whole person bc we will never be able to know someone but to discover them day by day … so yes, Heejae loves Garam, particularly his sound because it touches his soul. If Garam lost the ability to play will the professor remain, for that I’m not sure, I’d like to think yes. Because both of them have now touched and seen their souls, both understand music kind of in the same way now.
So I’m glad by Garam’s answer: so what? We know we are loved for a reason, our personality, our looks, our work, our family, our money, our future… there’s a reason… so what about it? Some reasons can be perceived as nicer than others but we all have a reason why we love someone.
Compton, it really breaks my heart, compassion is hard to understand. Because in his eyes, what’s the Professor suffering or pain that deserves it? What kind of demons could a “god” possibly have? But, as a movies have quoted: even gods bleed, so does Heejae.
Amazing story can get enough of it. (〜￣△￣)〜
I loved the chapter!!! I loved Compton’s reaction. I loved his inner dialogue about how wrong he was of calling out Garam and how he recognized he was messing their ‘heavenly music’.
I think Garam’s interpretation as explained before is how to handle the professor and it makes sense he pours hatred, anxiety, and warmth. That’s how they relationship started Garam hated the professor, he hated how he was treated and ofc he was almost all the time anxious and it was visible throughout the his student life and his early career. But later, warmth came… he recognized the lonely and pitiful man hiding in his music. He saw him beyond his teaching, career but as a human … ofc this doesn’t mean that everyone should look at him with those eyes because he’s been a fricking asshole.
So yeah, going back to his performance I think that’s why he can use those feelings at the same time. He knows Heejae can be a moron and asshole, he still gets anxious of his career and what the professor will think but also at this point he has felt also the warmth Heejae can give and how Garam’s sound can soothe him. (▰˘◡˘▰)
Ufff as I previously, I understand Compton’s feelings. There’s no other way that he wouldn’t feel betrayed no matter what, he was delusional yes but also deceived. I’m not blaming Garam, but he and the professor were deceiving him and lying to him… for X reasons that are valid but still. They could have chosen another director, another concerto moment but indeed both in a way recognized Compton’s work.
I’m glad the professor didn’t intervene but the most magical moment was: then you do it, show me how to play the piano… because damn! That was a fucking slap hahaha he’s fully aware of how his music and performance has grown and also calling him immature and not worthy of being on stage for his feeling were also a cold bucket! I love Garam.
I didn’t like the manager thinking he has become cold… as implying that’s bad. He was being humiliated and he didn’t allow it another second more because ofc those things were petty behavior and not real feedback to his music.
You go Garam, stomp that bitch’
Damn, again my empathy towards Compton remains. I can imagine how devastating and the feeling of betrayal he must’ve felt after realizing that Garam loves the professor and he loves him back.
He lied to his face several times, not about the abuse he did suffer (Garam) or how he could relate to what both had to endure. But it’s the lie of playing his comrade, his “friend” … everything was an illusion and both played with him. That’s the reality so I understand him. However, that shows how immature he still is to humiliate Garam in front of others too.
I hope the professor doesn’t intervene, I think that’s something Garam should handle by himself, even though in my mind I want the professor to break Compton’s baton!
Aside from that, the professor was super cute’ he is cute, he can be cute, ughhhh
Fr :(
Those r the consequences of forcing your beliefs and projecting really hard, he lowkey had it coming tho
Garam didn’t lie about the comrade and friendship. I mean not the stupid label comrade but he appreciates his relationship with Compton as an artist, as a teacher and possibly something more. If you read chapter 190, whenever Compton brought up the professor’s criticism, Garam always told him he was super thankful for having Compton guidance and “the only sensitive enough” for his sounds. He was being truthful but Compton was just too wrapped up in his hatred and frustration for Heejae he was unable to see anything else. I think its very important that Garam face is always portrayed as semi blurred or none if his features are clearly showed to signify Compton’s inability to accept anyone good favour due to his deeply rooted issues with Heeaje.
I completely understand what you say. Indeed, Garam is thankful for everything he has taught him, and that in truth, they share a common past with the professor.
But still, he did lie. He never showed that he didn’t agree with his view of the professor, once he was against a wall he would take Compton’s side instead of explaining that he didn’t feel the same way.
Ofc one thing is about his relationship with the professor that he can be private but another about Heejae as a teacher. He could have said that indeed he’s X and Y but he can also be Z or that he was changing or idk. Even if Compton couldn’t believe that professor can change … still worth the shot to say in my opinion.
That why I said he lied, and for Compton was a lie and an illusion even if Garam tried to be partially honest with him and that he respects him as a conductor.
I need to read the upcoming chapters to have a clearer idea of what both felt.
I mean Compton is another wall himself I don’t think Garam is resourceful enough to pull that down at that stage of the story haha . I think he did try by hinting at chapter 180 maybe you’re going too far with the teaching method but he didn’t care. I also think Compton is 30 already (?) so he had more than 10+ years to let his hatred & ideals brewing and poisoning his head and while what you said can be true, I don’t think a word or two from Garam would have change anything. I think its also a choice for the author to let the conflicts unravel like that because I can’t imagine another 2-3 chapters of Garam tried to persuade Compton or talked him out. I guess in a way, it’s a very harsh wake up call for him because he doesn’t really understand Heejae and he also doesn’t understand his closest student who he thought he was on the same boat with. He would have to force himself to see it in another perspective from now on.
This chapter showed side of Compton that he usually hides which is being scared of Heejae’s comments.
As someone that seems to have been a teacher’s pet, he still waits for his validation, his encouragement and kind words. As any victim of abuse, they would take any crumbles of kindness from their abuser and that really broke my heart for Mr. Compton.
I hope he finds peace and goes to therapy.
Garam, please be kind to your man as you have been. He for sure has been an asshole but it’s your asshole (for now at least).
I’ve read a couple of comments saying they’re scared of Garam changing and not appreciating the music if there’s no piano.
In a way, I understand but isn’t that common to “bitch” about other tastes/professions once you become good at one? Like for example all the hype that happens everywhere of becoming a Doctor, but those that are already doctors and specialize in a particular subject feel more entitled to criticize: cardiology is better, no plastic surgery is better bc of money, no psychiatry is all about the mind, no the top of the top is neurologist… and so on and on.
Now with music and in this scenario I feel is the same. A violinist could think they’re better than a pianist but both will feel better than a flautist and so on and on… so Garam won’t stop enjoying music, the professor loves music (it has been drawn how much he enjoys jazz) but if you perfect something maybe some pieces will feel mild or plain if a piano isn’t there because they know how to play it. For them that’s the top cherry… and I feel it’s a valid sentiment.
So, yes fame could change him but not to the extent of him not enjoying music at all. I think here is more about getting into the realm of perfectionist/ love for his instrument rather than fame.
Thank you for reading this haha
(づ￣ ³￣)づ
Garam will definitely change for sure especially in the up coming chapters. I hope that he doesn't turn into Heejae in the sense that all he cares about is the purity of music. I lowkey thought that he would crash out if the sound didn't right and I feel like he's getting habits from Heejae. It's possible that the more famous he gets the more he cares about the purity of the music. Like nitpicking every single thing like Heejae did at the start of the story.
Actually ima add on to that perfectionist realm that Garam is going into. The recent chapter has shown us that he got like tremors if it wasn't the way he wanted but after Compton fixed what was wrong the tremor stopped. If this was Garam back then like during the Christmas arc over 80 chapters ago then he wouldn't have mind the ever so little details. For example, the people eating during the Christmas performance he didn't care. But now, if he played that Christmas piece then he would probably start being shakey again.
Simply, Garam cares about the purity of the sound after being exposed to what a perfect symphony sounds like / feels.
Exactly. But is that a bad thing? I don’t know. It all depends on how you treat others. For instance when Garam stayed to play with the other woman that I forgot her name … he explained how the sound was supposed to come and sound. I mean, they are professionals, they should care about it if not them then who?
As a person who doesn’t know anything about classical music I’d probably find enjoyable even if there’s a mistake in a concerto or symphony because we are unaware. But the conductor or another professional or erudite of the matter will notice and criticize it.
So again, if Garam moves towards perfectionism it isn’t a bad thing but probably a lonely place (as Heejae and even Compton) where not everyone understands or feels what you are listening to.
But that doesn’t mean you’ll stop enjoying the music but maybe classical music they will be a harder judges and critics.
Ugh my heart is divided. As someone who needs constant reassurance with words I understand Garam. As someone who has a partner who doesn’t say it that much because he finds it empty, I understand the professor.
But the professor will say it, I know he will. But those words will mean maybe nothing, it’s the actions, the attitude, the change in his life the way he shows it.
For some people saying words could be meaningless, just sounds in the air, what counts is how you behave but it’s here in how you behave that then you start saying it to reassure the other person.
Professor, I love you, and I know you’ll do the right thing but it will take time.